All this studying is getting me really fucking horny. It's usually not this bad.

It's 7am and I just woke up for my 8am final and starting singing Maroon 5 into my mirror while dancing in my boxers. I'm too much of a morning person..

I'm the guy that you have seen dancing through that window in that dorm. I can't help it. I love dancing when that beat is bumpin and rappin/singing when its loud enough that no one can hear me outside of my room.

I also think those who say they have "depression" are making excuses. They need to get up and do something instead of being so freakin lazy.

I cannot wait for it to be Saturday.

To be honest, I'm not that happy even though I'm in college. I just feel so inferior compared to everyone else because I didn't come in after taking 10 AP classes in high school and because I don't have a 4.0 GPA. I'm also not an athlete and I've never been a social person. I feel as though my worth is measured by my grades, and people who excel in their classes just rub it in my face. I feel that everyone who isn't already successful has a better chance at success than me. I don't feel validated. I also feel that I can't convey this insecurity to someone because I'll just be judged for whining or not being a man. One time I went to the seventh floor of McKeldin and sat between two shelves just to cry over my mistakes without being seen. I'm not saying I'm suicidal, I'm living this life and I'm not taking a gift like that from myself. But I am saying that I feel conformed. I can't really shine as a person. I don't feel special. Maybe I'm just not.

I am in need of a goodluck blowjob for these exams that are coming up

Teenagers scare the living shit out of me.