Thursday, 18 January 2018 11:11 PM
#21404 To #21403
You have to fight. It's not easy. You have to want it. And even then it's a daily struggle. Especially without medication. Even with medication it can be difficult. This past week has been a living nightmare for me. The anniversary effect has been in full swing. Negative thoughts that I've been able to block out or not attach to have surfaced and been at the forefront of most of my waking thoughts. Even my dreams have been impacted. I'm a 25 year old man who has cried himself to sleep for a week. Including blacking out from drinking. The feelings of sadness and emptiness have been strong. So strong I've wished I would have died last year. ive wanted to die the past couple of days because it hurts so much to think certain thoughts. But you know what? I've had to remind myself that life isn't fair and it isn't easy. And there is a single quote that keeps me from faltering below the threshold. Committing suicide doesn't end the pain, it simply passes it on to someone else. That quote keeps me going. I may stumble, I may fall down, but I will stay the course no matter how treacherous the path may be. I don't know what your situation is, but you can always try to make it better via therapy and medication or even just changing your surrounding s and friends. Just don't give up. Fight for yourself because no one else is going to.
Thursday, 18 January 2018 04:35 PM
, I am about to be 29. I've tried to kill myself 3 times, before the age of 18. There is not a single day, no matter how happy I may be, that I don't consider it at least once. I could be happy driving in perfect weather, windows down, and great music. It could be the perfect day, then I see that guardrail and contemplate driving into it. For me, it has been a lifelong struggle, much like addiction. Instead of thinking I can get better, I have just learned to accept that this is who I am. I have to live with it. The bad days, weeks, and even months pass.
Tuesday, 16 January 2018 06:40 PM
#21402 I attempted suicide one year ago today. The reason why I tried still haunts me. And this past week has been rough. I've cried, sobbed, drank myself to sleep. But I refuse to let this feeling consume me again. I will not give in. I will cry and cry and cry to the point where everything hurts and I have people telling me to get over things, but I will not break. Not again. I'm not over my reasons quite yet, but I'm getting there. Day by day. Hopefully one day I'll laugh at myself but until then I will survive my demons.
Thursday, 11 January 2018 11:49 AM
#21401 Going to a psychologist is like doing the hokey pokey, you turn yourself around and that's what it's all about
Monday, 08 January 2018 08:35 PM
Monday, 08 January 2018 04:49 PM
#21399 Has anyone tried P2P lending? I am thinking it maybe fun to throw some small amounts every paycheck into it and see what happens.
Sunday, 07 January 2018 10:14 PM
#21398 i can't condone to:
1) people getting married while they are still a undergrad
2) people got engaged after 4 months of dating just because he give you the perfect proposal (you were still in the honeymoon phase, trust me, this will most likely end in failure)
3) people who got pregnant before marriage (trust me, it's not planned, you just fucked up)
Sunday, 07 January 2018 08:21 PM
#21397 My qualms about dogs living outside don't necessarily have to do with the weather. Yeah your dog can be meant for cold weather, but it's the fact that it's a pack animal and your forcing it to live separate from you. You are grossly misunderstanding the nature of dogs if you thing chaining it up outside is going to be an acceptable environment for them regardless of weather.