This happened in Spring, I was messing around with my boys just having fun when I started talking to this girl I just met randomly outside. I got her number and started texting away. For some reason I kind of felt something with her. What's funny is the fact I do admit I am sort of a pick up artist and really easy to get girls, but with her I really liked her. Anyways one day I spent the day with her and she wanted to proceed to sex. We didn't even go on a first date and interestingly enough I didn't want to because honestly I really thought she was the most gorgeous thing there was. I was so nervous that I could not even get it up. It shocked me because it was my first time I never got hard and she had this awkward look after I told her I am so nervous that she looked away and didnt say anything. A few days later I texted her drunk telling her she is beautiful not just her appearance, but her true head to tip soul. She didnt respond. Long story short, she ended up telling me we should never go on date and just defriended me on fb. I was sort of taken back by it a little. My friends even asked me why do I like this girl when I have dated models and girls hotter than her, I just told them bro I really thing that she is perfection to anything I have felt. It sounds dumb and corny haha but honestly everytime I see her randomly I can't help but smile and act nervous, because I still like her. Haha sorry for the essay mates.

I don't care about my life/well-being as much as I should. You know you have a problem when you drink with the intention of getting blackout drunk.

I know who isn't planning on getting laid by seeing if they have a lofted/bunk bed.

I take snapshots of hot girls on Tinder.

I feel like college relationships aren't for me. Everyone just wants to hook up and have casual sex, but I'm ready for a long term, committed relationship NOW. No, I'm not too young and no, I don't care about "just having fun." It's just not who I am. So as a result, I invest too much in people and end up hurt. For the longest time I thought it was my fault, but now I realize that people just suck. If anyone is interested in an ACTUAL relationship with someone who wears their heart on their sleeve and will promise to love you UNCONDITIONALLY, come find me.

This world, god, it makes me so angry. Like these drug ads for cancer treatment, diabetes, blood pressure. Like a guy just supposed to go to go to a drug store and fill a cart with all the latest and greatest drugs. The ones that make you feel better, that make you look younger, that make you look like those 60 year-olds about to get it on. Do these drug companies think that the average buyer knows what drug is good for them? You know what the doctor is going to say when asked about these drugs, they'll say no. But I guess if you are insistent enough, maybe if you throw a tantrum or two, the doctor will give you the drug you want so much. I don't know, maybe I will have a different opinion of it when I work for a drug company and the profits feed my family.

anneliese loves david <3

nobody wants to be with an immature mommas boy. eventually she will dump you