#21685 "Jipped".. is a racial slur

#21682

Transferring high schools was one of the best and worst decisions I made. On the bright side, I had a fresh start being in a new school, with new students, make a new reputation for myself and I had my braces in so my speech was a little clear. On the downside, I was living with my neurotic, delusional, overprotective, nosy grandmother. My grandmother is far from the usual. I was better off dropping out with the way she acted. She would come up to the school every day for nothing. Every time I turned around I was getting called down to the office because she wanted to keep tabs on me. She then made friends with people down office so that they would call me down the office asking me if I’m okay. Then she pulling random students out of classes trying to help me make friends. Then bragging about me down the office telling the male students how “pretty” I am when they all thought I was ugly to begin with. This went on from 11th grade till I graduated. Teachers were probably thinking I was special ed or some shit. I developed a reputation for having a crazy grandma and therefore a lot of the students didn’t want to be my friend because they thought something was wrong with me. But I had my 2 misfit friends.
In 12th grade, I had intentions on going to prom with my female friend. My grandmother always thought I was gay and still think I am so she tries to play matchmaker and hook me up with every guy she comes across. So she happened to run into some guy from school at the grocery store and he told her he knew me and my friend. I didn’t know who he was but my friend did. So my gma takes me and my friend up to the store to meet him and before you know it she’s asking this guy to take me to prom. He said “yes” with no hesitation because he loved going to proms. Little that my grandmother knew, the guy was gay lol.
Unlike high school, college was great experience for me. I was partying with my cousins and friends, making good grades, those were the happiest moments of my life. But guys still found me unattractive and weird to be more specific the ones that were my race. The only time guys my race see me as attractive is when I wear makeup and wear weave which is not my thing. On the other hand, I attract a lot of guys outside of my race with and without makeup. Since I grew up in a predominantly black county I have a hard time connecting with guys outside of my race.
To solve that problem, I decided to try online dating which was an epic fail.

#21678 Fun fact: Since Bill Cosby was an honorary Chief in the Navy, he actually went through a court martial and was stripped of rank.

#21679 Anyone advocating for any sort of energy that's not a Dyson sphere is fucking naïve as shit. Dyson Spheres are the ultimate energy source and are 100% percent renewable and requirement to be a type 2 civilization.

#21683 What's your favorite idea?

#21680 I'm telling you the devil jipped me for a hamburger!

#21684 Comming from the other side of life i can say that love is something that I've needed in my life, I never had it. My parents never cared, they just wanted the extra money at tax time, while dressing me in am vets clothing and feeding me very cheap food. In high school, i had to make money, so i would work at yum yums until like 2am, hoping i never got shot. Every success I've had was followed by, "is this over yet?" Rather than oh I'm so proud of you or excited for you... growing up like that, and seeing others get that, it's pretty heart breaking. Confidence isn't sonething I have, I look at it like this, your confidence is a the push you have, that push is formed from all the ego building accomplishments, the recognition, the proud moments in your life, the love given to you from everybody. Without them, there's no confidence, so it's like even the smallest thing breaks you down.

Living a life where neither of those exist, or where all your good times are in your past, it's hard to function normally, you get extra anxiety and think that you're in everybody's way even when you're not, feeling bad is a norm, a good day is seeing that person you like, but you rarely talk to.

Building yourself up is almost impossible, caring about others escalates to paranormal areas (where the smallest thing is usually blown out of proportion)

#21677 Anyone advocating that we should derive 100% of our electricity from renewable energy resources is naive. Yes, climate change is a legitimate concern, but we need fossil fuels for baseload power and the thermal energy requirements of manufacturing. Yes, biomass and hydropower could be used to generate baseload power, but biomass production is energy and carbon intensive. Our ability to harvest hydropower is limited and organic material can build up behind dams to emit methane. Renewable energy is generally intermittent and variable, and energy storage systems are still too expensive to be implemented at a wide scale. There will always be environmental tradeoffs between different types of electricity production. As a result, it matters how we manage the tradeoffs. What we need to do is to figure out how to fully develop and commercialize Carbon Capture Storage and Sequestration because the climate models illustrate that we will not hit our 450 PPM carbon dioxide concentration goal without the use of the technology. We also need a carbon tax.