#3867 I hang out with guys who treat me like shit (even though I deserve none of it, and am constantly told by others that I am a very kind person) because I have forgotten what it feels like to be treated with respect and dignity.

#3866 I just lost my virginity in a one night stand with a guy who I met earlier that day. It's not that I feel bad because I lost it (the sex was pretty bad though), but I lost it to a guy who probably doesn't care about me. Call me old fashioned, but I kinda wanted my first time to be with someone who gave a shit about me as a person. And now its gone, and I feel like crap.

#3865 Can someone please explain to me why UMD have some shitty fucked up strict rules when it comes to academics. Specially CS department where it says that a student can take maximum 2 CMSC courses per semester. Also why do they make a transfer student stay for at least 3 years with their shitty rules....

#3864 As I am suffering from severe fever, it has occurred to me for the first time ever that I really wish to have someone sitting next to my bed. She wouldn't have to do anything. Just put her hands on my head and ensure me that I am okay. I had girlfriends before. I got sick before. but this urge is new and desperate. due to some reasons, I washed my hands off of affairs. I am completely into only physical relations. I decided not to love someone cause if i do i would break my promise (I am very strict when I made one to me or anyone else. I would keep my words no matter what happens). it's not what I am worried about. the reason is nobody can be happy with me in a relationship. It's not fault of mine but rather my views don't match therefore I can't see anyone gets hurt emotionally by me. But, sometimes like now feeling like it's a fantastic feeling to be with someone but alas! it's not gonna happen ever.

#3863 Sex. Weed. Pizza. Literally that's life dude. The trifecta.

#3862 Is there any polite way to ask someone to chew their gum quieter, when they're just smacking it w/their mouth wide open in the same quiet area as you?

#3861 i've never felt more alone

#3860 School is literally boring as fuck sometimes. Studying for my history exam isn't challenging, I just feel like I am grinding this shit out so I can be done with it. Seriously, what does a good GPA mean when half my fucking classes are fuck all. Sometimes I just want to drop out and go on my own adventure in life. Studying useless shit isn't exciting. I obviously enjoy my major related classes, but the other ones... fuck man.