#4203 I wish that the girl I have no chance of ever getting though I think of her all the time could just slap me or something so that it can be easier to not like her

#4202 Question for women - What is up with these shit load of smiley faces on one text message that you women send? I mean when women text they put a shit load(shit load meaning at least 4 or 5) of smiley faces in one text message while I reply with none. I replace all those smiley faces with either a "LOL", "LMAO" or just a simple "hehe" at the end of the message. So yea, whats up with that?

#4201 You know what? Being a girl with social anxiety disorder sucks. I don't think anybody realizes how scared I am all the time. This stupid phobia controls every aspect of my life. (Yes it's technically a phobia, another name for it is social phobia.) I can't say or do anything without second guessing myself and turning it over and over in my head. The worst part is I can't talk to anyone about it, the phobia won't let me. As much as I've loved college ever since I first got here in august, being here with out my friends from high school has been incredibly difficult on me and it has made the anxiety worse. I had forgotten how truly awful I am at making friends. Sure I've found people to talk to and whatnot, but there's only one person I've found that I actually talk to outside of organized group events. (And he's a story for a whole nother confession.)

#4200 I talked to my parents about it, and I'm going to withdraw from this semester and come back to UMD next fall. I'm terrified of everything that could go wrong (not getting back in for one; my boyfriend and I not holding up over a longer distance is another), but I think it'll be best for me. I just have to remember that.

#4199 Every time I hear a sentimental song my eyes tear up. Even though I know just how futile a gesture it is, I just can't help it. The more I have learned of this world, the more I have discovered that nothing is pure enough to cry over, least of all a song, but these lyrics just tug on the very core of my being. I am a human after all.

#4198 I busted a nut on one of the bike racks in front of the math building at night once

#4197 It really sucks when your bestest friend in high school goes away to college and you stay in state and they change more and more every year till you don't even talk to each other. And don't even get in touch when your home for break...fuck this. It hurts

#4196 Even though I'm a gay guy, I constantly wonder if women find me attractive. I'm self conscious and I feel like if I knew women found me attractive I'd feel more attractive. Does that make sense?