#4401 I recently realized that I like when guys like me, but I have zero desire to put forth the emotional, mental, and physical effort of liking them back. Some have said that this makes me a tease, but it's not like I do anything physical with them - I simple act like myself and do what I want, all the while hoping one of them will express an interest. And once they do, I just kindly say no and move on, and eventually so do they. It's weird. I'm weird.

#4400 To #4382: Like right now, maybe? I need to release some finals tension.

#4399 I'm proposing to my girlfriend in front of Stamp at noon Friday. I'm so nervous.

#4398 I require a metric ton of bacon!

#4397 I cannot wait to lose my virginity. I have become a very horny girl. Looking for an experienced guy though...

#4396 I noticed this really beautiful girl whom I didn't know a while ago and planned to talk to her for weeks. I finally man-ed up and approached her and let her know that I thought she was pretty blah blah blah. I thought I had a chance since she accepted to hangout afterwards but from our texts I'm 90% sure we're not getting past a friendship (she makes sure to remind me we're friends every time I hint at something more) and now I'm super down because it took a lot of effort to make a move.

#4395 For once I'd like for my family to not constantly fight and yell at each other over the dumbest shit every time I come home.
For once I'd like for my friends to not leave me hanging on projects at the last minute.
For once I'd like for, whenever I struggling with something, a friend of mine to come up and ask, "Hey, would you like some help with that?"
For once I'd like for one of my friends to reach out to me to see how things are going or just to say hi when I'm not physically in front of them.
For once I'd like for one of my friends accept my invitation for them to tag along to do something and not get the whole "sorry I'm busy" routine.
For once I'd like people to invite me to do fun things with them or even just to hang out somewhere.
For once I'd like the chance to hang out with a girl, even if it's just for fun and not romantic.
For once I'd like for someone to reach out to me when I'm struggling in life and just help me out.
For once I'd like to feel confident about myself and around others.
For once I'd just like for life to stop continually making me feel depressed and reward me for all the hard work and dedication I put into everything I do.

Too bad none of those things ever happen-or will happen to me, even once.

#4394 Welp. It's finals season. Time to move into the McKeldin library.