#4700 I tell myself that I want to forget about my ex, but I secretly enjoy that I still dream about him. Especially when they involve him telling me what's wrong with his marriage.

#4697 I hate the energy/recharge analogy for introverts. It's not energy, it's stress (at least for me). It's like with territorial pack animals when you've got an individual that's not part of a pack in another pack's territory they may interact ok with the pack but they are constantly wary and on edge waiting for the first sign that the other pack is going to turn on them, and maintaining that heightened alert is stressful.

#4701 I want to be funny, you know like "comedian" funny but I'm too serious. I love jokes and I sort of tell a couple every now and then but I want to do my own material someday.

#4702 I'm so afraid of being alone. Not in the future or whatever, but in the present. I always need background noise. If I'm in the house alone, I have the tv on no matter what else I'm doing. If I'm in my dorm alone, I have music playing while I do homework. But as soon as there are other people in the room, I don't need the background noise at all. My roommate might walk into our room after class and I turn off the music so as not to bother her, and I suddenly don't need it anymore. I fall asleep either listening to music (when I'm at school, especially when I'm sleeping in my room alone), or to books on cd or a tv show on my laptop when I'm at home.
If I don't have background noise, I start being paranoid about everything and over thinking.
Is this normal?

#4705 Sometimes I'm afraid of everything. It's like I retreat into a shell and all that exists is the fear.

#4703 I've been planning to spend the summer traveling. The entire summer. It's something I've been looking forward to a for a while, but now I'm scared and having second thoughts because I don't want to be without my boyfriend for the entire summer. It's a dumb reason to give up a dream, but I love him and I'm scared to be without him for so long. And I can't talk to anyone about it because they'll all think badly of me because of it, since they know this trip means so much to me. I don't know what to do, but I'm so scared of this trip that I once wanted more than anything.

#4704 I have been waiting for the honor council to send me an email for over a month now, does anyone know how long it takes for them to actually send an email out? I know that it is break and everything but not knowing what is going to happen. If I get an XF in this course the rest of the years following including this semester get messed up. I just think it is ridiculous that I have to wait over a month if not more to know what is going happen. I will not be able to take three of my classes next semester if I do get my XF therefore I would have to sign up for classes but the schedule I have right now is great. Does anyone know how long this will take? should I have heard something by now?

#4695 The first thing I'm going to do after I move back into the dorm is go to the bars.