#5082 I'm a pothead. But I'm doing very very well in life. Like people who don't know I smoke wouldn't guess I do from how productive I am... so I really don't want to quit.

Some say there are adverse effects to smoking constantly, such as my brain becoming dumber. The only one I notice is that my throat is dry, but like it gets less dry as I smoke more, and I'm not sure if that's a good thing. But it can't be much worse than what drinking does to my liver? Why such a big deal? Why da looks?

Decisions decisions....

#5081 I'm starting to think that I have a problem. I've become way too reliant on substances. Every night I'm either bared out on xanex, drunk, or on some random psychedelic. I spend every day stoned. Everywhere I go I am getting high. Then this leads to me sleeping the day away and/or going through random meaningless activities in a high blur. I don't remember the last time I was sober... except those 5 minutes every morning when I wake up and begin to think about my mess of a life, which then leads to such an overwhelming feeling of angst all I can do to calm down is roll a blunt to take off the edge or drown myself in xanex. It sucks really. I'm seeing a therapist but I don't think I'm really being honest with him about who I really am and what I am really feeling. I'm thinking about dropping out of school, and not because the work is too hard.. because I can't gather up the mental strength to get the fuck out of my bed and brave this weather for some stupid piece of paper that certifies me as being smart. Sorry for that tangent, but hello substance abuse issues, and thank you college <3

#5080 With regards to the recent Ellen page incident: I feel like we as a society should stop celebrating anytime a celebrity or anyone actually comes out. If I understand the gay rights movement in the least they are pushing for gays to be treated normally and not as something different than heterosexuals. By celebrating someone's coming out we are further showing that being gay is something different. My attitude, I don't fucking care. I don't care if you like men or women so don't fucking tell me and expect me to treat you differently. With regards to the civil rights movement, the difference between then and now is that back then they were treated as something different and now they are treated the same. Sure we notice someone's skin color and some have rooted racism but otherwise we don't care and won't treat them different because there ancestors went through a tough time. And the Ellen page thing isn't isolated either. On the today show Jenna Wolfe frequently talks of her gay life, partner, child etc well guess what I don't fucking care and that's not news. Matt lauer doesn't brag about his heterosexual life wife or kids so why should gays get to project their life like its special or different. Coming out in public almost seems like people want to gain false respect and publicity for something that doesn't matter. TLDR: I don't fucking care if you're gay don't tell me and expect meTo feel any differently about you

#5079 Skyler from Breaking Bad is so freakin hot. I'd cook meth all day and night just get some of that sweet redhead pussy.

#5078 This is in reference to my earlier confession #5054 "Lately I've been going through this cycle of wanting to do things that are good for my overall health"... I took some of the advice in the comments left by Shabaab Kamal and Kris O'Neil. I decided to stop smoking last night Valentines Day before going to see my girlfriend and it is now 2:45AM on February 15 and I still have not smoked. I really feel like I've accomplished something and I am breathing a lot better. I feel like if I make this confession it will help me stick to it because the funny thing is as soon as I spark up a cigar or cigarette and start smoking it about 1/3 through it I am disgusted by it and my poor willpower but I just keep smoking and hating it. I would like to thank you both for taking the time to leave that advice. I am going to work on my diet next week.

#5077 I wish there was some kind of PC builders club at UMD. I really like building computers.

#5076 My girlfriend of a year and 7 months just broke up with me because she found another guy.. On Valentines Day... I feel empty.

#5075 I am SO sick and tired of being treated like I am dispensable by every single one of my so called friends here at UMD. I have tried to offset my lack of social life by just throwing myself into my classes/schoolwork, but everyone needs someone every now and again me included. I have tried a couple clubs, but being the introverted and insecure person I am, I always feel like I am just in the way. I really do not like the way I am beginning to feel about myself.