I didn't think Miley Cyrus was hot until she went crazy.

Sometimes I wish I was downs syndrome instead of autistic. So then everyone would have lower expectations of me, and I could meet/exceed them. Instead, I feel like a massive failure, and l haven't failed yet (though I did get 5/10 on my hw today) and I don't wanna see it happen when it DOES happen, because I'm on the road there. I can't help but wonder how much of it is me just not having ambition/self-control...and how much is due to autism/adhd and a bunch of other things. I'm a junior, but Idk if i'll make it much further.

I didn't experience my first kiss until after High School. Not because I'm unattractive, but because I wanted it all to be "special". I was a virgin at NAU until my freshman year when I was date raped by three different men three consecutive times. Sex is completely meaningless to me now. I've had one night stands but still have never had a boyfriend.

I try to pass myself off as a sensitive guy but I secretly have this sense of machismo that makes me hate myself for openly weeping, even if there's nobody else around.

I kind of want to have someone slap me in the face if only so I could slap them right back right now.

Over the summer, I didn't spend time with anyone aside from my family and I got a lot more in touch with myself. I got a lot more sensitive as a result. "Dead Poets Society" was the first movie I ever cried at, and I'm not even ashamed at that fact.

I stepped in a huge mud puddle and had mud all over my shoe. So I tailgated into Cowden and used the second story showers to clean my shoe. After I finished it looked like someone shit in the shower. I hear people talking about it whenever we talk about gross dorm bathroom stories but I'm too ashamed to tell anyone it was me.

I have constantly struggled with my weight every since Sophomore year in high school. I'm starting to see my confidence go down as I see the scale numbers increase. I just feel intimidated to go and work out at the HLC, healthy choices on campus isn't too difficult, but it's still a struggle. I just wish I was skinny and confident.