I wish more people could look past my tired face and grumpy mood and see that underneath I'm just a baby that needs a hug/nap.

That Donald Trump chalk drawing near the Union really offended me! They are so not cool. Seriously feel the Bern and stop being so mean to everyone!

Screw fuck buddies, how come there is never bondage buddies?!

I fingered my girlfriend in the Lowell Observatory parking lot im broad daylight and it was awesome

I realized that Supernatural is just grown ups Scooby Doo.

Odd things that tempt to get a girlfriend:
- Watching the final dance scene to magic mike XXL and thinking that it'd be great to have someone to practice that on, and then reap the rewards with after.

When the "I'm making huge life decisions and don't even know what I want yet" feeling hits you. Fuck.

I feel worthless. I lost my job, only have $60 to my name. Not to worry, my life is subsidized anyways, but I'm still personally broke as all hell. I used to be slim and very attractive, but I've gained almost 100 pounds since then. I'm now too big to fit into any of my good clothes for an interview. My grades are the only thing I have going for me right now, but after tomorrows Exam I'm not sure. Most of my days are now spent lazing around on the internet and studying. I've become such an asshole.. I guess being mean is kind of a defense mechanism. After high school graduation everything just started to go down hill. Some of my greatest friends abandoned me for unknown reasons. I have no one that I am really close with anymore. No father, a schizophrenic mother, my grandma is bitchy, but she can be nice, and that's about it. It is kind of like when you get older and the magic of Christmas or whatever goes away. That has happened now for my visions of the future. To be honest I just want to end it sometimes. I don't feel like I was built for this world. When I was a kid I used to fantasize about finding my spaceship and blasting off to home, and I think that feeling of being so alien compared to normal people has followed me. I just don't see the point in any of this. Maybe it is my upbringing that fucked me up. Having my dad pull a gun on my mom, and then being without him since 4 years of age. A schizophrenic mother that had episodes every year. In one of them she got naked and ran around our local park. In another she drove through someone's front yard and snuck into their bedroom. Usually on Christmas eve she'd have an episode, so we'd end up driving around aimlessly all night. We were poor, and when the plumbing went out we'd use plastic bags, I "shit" you not. Upon entering 4th grade, I moved in with my wealthy grandparents, but they fought so much. Everyone fights so much. A lot more shit has happened, but its too much for one post. I just feel like giving up sometimes. Is anyone out there willing to talk? Don't just say yes; you really need to mean it. I don't want to burden anyone, so please don't say yes out of mere pity.