I love foreplay and teasing and being kinky... I like that moment right before a guy is about to cum, and his whole body tenses up, his abs flex and then boom... sudden relief. That gives me such great satisfaction. Keep doing your thing fellas. I fucking love it

Lately, I have been feeling distant from two of my best friends up here. I feel excluded for the majority of the time I am around them and I try to be included but sometimes it's like I am not even there. I really, really wish I wasn't so jealous but I am and I don't know what to do...

I was a serious alcoholic from the age of 19-23. It screwed up my first attempt at college, but luckily I realized I had a problem when I was young, went to rehab, and kicked booze before it had a chance to really mess up my life. Currently going on 5 years free of alcohol (yay), haven't had any urges to start drinking again, and really just am over the substance entirely.

However, I feel I may have traded one addiction for other addictions. I fear that I have now become a drug addict. I do not do any of the heavier, "negative energy" substances like heroin, meth, PCP, bath salts, or anything like that- just party drugs and psychadelics- but the frequency and extremely heavy usage of these drugs is starting to take a toll on my body and mind.

I can't stop. Sometimes I'll manage to go sober for a month or so, but then I'm right back to doing it every weekend.

I've allowed it to go this far because drugs have never been at any level near the destructive force alcohol was in my life- but I can't allow it anymore. My grades are beginning to suffer (failing one my classses for the first time since coming back to college), I'm not productive enough, my psychi is very poor, and my body feels like crap all the time.

I don't know what to do because the money isn't there for me to go to rehab again and I'm not a fan of AA/NA (gave it a chance, was required to go to 2 a day for 90 days when I was in rehab for alcohol) or the twelve step program.

Part of me wants to run away somewhere far. But I have too much going for me here.

Not expecting anyone to help, just wanted to get these thoughts out there.

I love being crazy, fuck normality. Although normality doesn't exist so ya logical fallacies and what not.

Whenever I hear people say they hate school (in college) I honestly feel sorry for them. It's unfortunate that they or there parents are paying all this money for them to study something they dislike.

I wish that all NAU students learn how to dress from international students. American guys and girls have bad taste in clothing and style. I know this might be a generalization, but it applies to most of you. Who in the world go to school in PJs, assholes?!!

The minute you dumped me and drove off in that stupid car, I called my ex-boyfriend. I wanted to forget the taste of your kisses and I wanted your smell off my sheets. Mission accomplished. I'm fine by the way :)

It has been almost two years and I still haven't gotten over my girlfriend. I just heard our song that we used to liten to because it came up on pandora radio and I just started bawling. I haven't had another relationship since her and she has moved on but I'm stuck in place. I have trust issues and I have no idea how to get over it.