I'm not in a relationship or anything, but some days I just wanna be pregnant. I really want to become a mom.

I graduated in dec from Fox. I have no job although I apply to at least one job nearly every day. I had great grades, great recommendations, a great job, all the right skills.... but no call backs or interviews. I have debt I need to pay and interest that will begin soon.

According to my family I'm a failure. There's only so much of this that I can take before I am no more.

I still have the most enormous crush on a classmate from spring term last year. I also don't know why I'm posting this, but I guess I just wanted to say it, even if anonymously.

I've been having very serious reoccurring thoughts about killing myself. I want to so badly. I've thought about how. Its just the when. I graduate soon- in like two weeks I think? It seems maybe silly to kill myself right before then. It also seems silly right after though. I guess maybe it really doesn't matter when I do it- the outcome will be the same and I'll be gone. I just have so much going on right now that I can't seem to handle. I just know life after college isn't gonna get better. Even my serious relationship is falling apart and I'll probably be crying myself to sleep tonight again. I feel so depressed and empty and hopeless. I don't know what to do. I just want this all to stop. I can't do it anymore.

Shout out to the guy in the Bon tonight who was super patient with me when my glove was being stubborn as hell and had to made you wait a minute. I half expected you to yell at me for being slow, but you proved me wrong and I'm thankful for your patience

Honestly, I hate it when people are doing a fitness challenge and they post before-and-after pictures of their bear bellies. Like, I know it's exciting you went from a size 22 to a size 20 last month, but I don't need to see a picture of it. Same goes for people who are size 4 and lost "that pesky 5 pounds" that's been bothering them. It's great to get healthy and inspire other people, but I feel like posting images of "skinnier" selves only promotes the stereotype of wanting public approval of their weight. You can be proud and confident without showing your tubby or scrawny belly for the world to see on their news feed...

Sometimes I wonder why there are so many guys with trucks and loud cars here, but then I realize they all must be compensating for something, or they have a need to prove their manhood. It's sad really.

I woke up naked after being intoxicated one night at a party, not remembering anything. I don't know who knows about it since that night I don't remember what events led up to that morning. I talked with the person who I woke up next to a little later to make sure I wasn't at risk for pregnancy or disease but the worst part of it all wasn't the guy who I didn't know prior to that night, but the social fear that I had socially with people who were there with me that night thinking that I was a some sort of rape victim or some whore. People have one night stands and I put myself in that position by going out in the mindset that I did but I wish it wasnt at a place like GFU.