I wish someone would make a confession post about liking me. Even if I didn't find out who it was, I'd be honored that someone would want to be with me like that

I find ironic how we reportedly have one of the higher rates of suicide compared to other American universities and we don't have a tolerance for the partying culture. A temporary release of atress never hurt anybody and people manage doing so on the low. It's usually the sheltered ones whose parents (that can be wealthy and probably have a big say in what happens in the school) that detest this motive as I can't see who else would be against it. However, many christian schools turn a blind eye to partying instead of blatantly going against it so I don't understand why George Fox is different. The ones who hate partying (smoking, drinking) are the ones that haven't tried it (can I get an amen?). I hope some faculty read this....

I think Levi Bowers is super attractive. And funny as hell. He's the kind of man I'd take home to meet the parents.

I wish I didn't have to wait all summer to see Katie Burks again and try to ask her out. It will be a long summer here in Newberg :/

I think that parents should never use money against theri children. Ever. Period.

I know that we are all fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of God, but sometimes I wish that I had the ability to create my own image. I struggle with insecurities. I know everyone does, but I feel hideous everyday. Some girls receive compliments from guys all the time. I don't even have that to get me through the day, month, or year. For once I want a guy to come up to me and compliment me. I hate when people say looks don't matter, because they really do. I'm not jealous of pretty girls, but I would give anything to be in their footsteps. I'm not saying that I want guys falling at my feet, but it would be nice to get a compliment or have a flirty cconversation. I'm always the ugly duckling. I'm not even that ugly ( according to some people). That is why I don't understand why guys don't pay attention to me. I can be in a group and whenever I talk guys don't even listen. When a pretty girl speaks they give them their undivided attention. Sorry for my rant. I just want to feel special.

I tend to be a very bold and straightforward kind of girl. I speak my mind and don't normally hold things back but I sometimes wonder if this is intimidating to guys, like maybe they don't know how to deal with my boldness or something. And I'm always told that you should let the guy pursue you and make the first move, which I generally agree with, but with my track record with guys (0 to be exact) I'm kind of getting frustrated sitting around and waiting for nothing to happen, like always. I very much like to take things into my own hands so waiting for "the right guy" to make the first move is very taxing. Sometimes I wonder if I need to put myself out there more but I also don't want to freak guys out, especially since flirting is something that is foreign to me, so it's not like I can win a guy over with that. Don't get me wrong, I've come to terms with being single, but I don't want to spend the rest of my life that way and I don't want to pass opportunities up if they present themselves because I'm supposed to wait to be pursued.
Sorry for sticking another one of these relationship themed posts on here, but I'm just curious to see what others think of my musings.

I was sad to leave George fox. I would've rather stayed in school for longer to hang out with friends more before summer