People judge me when they find out how many sexual partners I've had. Especially when they know most of them were hook-ups or "friends with benefits" relationships (and it also probably has something to do with the fact that I am female and not a male). To all of you who "slut-shame", yes, I know what I did wasn't really the greatest. What you don't know is during that time of my life I had just escaped from a terribly violent and abusive relationship that included a lot of horrific physical and sexual abuse. The sexual violence was what seemed to be the hardest to push back from my dreams at night and my thoughts. I did what I did because I felt like my body had already been ruined anyway. I did what I did because I was so damn depressed. I did what I did because I wanted something to push away those awful memories and events. I was so broken.

So here's a message to everyone who without shame judges others: You don't know their story, nor their past. You don't know what battles they have within. I'm not making excuses for myself. I know what I did wasn't the right way to try and fix myself (heck, I even knew at the time it wasn't super smart), but I was so broken and I can't exactly go back in time and change what I have done. What I can do is move forward. I'm on a road of healing now but it wasn't through judgement, it was through love. When I finally opened up to a close friend about what I been dealing with, she didn't condemn me. She loved me and comforted me. She encouraged me to seek help. There's no way I can ever thank her enough for all she did for me during such a hard and dark times and even to this day and I continue to walk the long road towards healing.

And lastly, for all you who have battled something similar, male or female, you are not alone.

I don't think anyone - and I really mean it - anyone in the *world* ever feels as stupid as I do as often as I do. I can always depend on myself to sabotage my job, my friendships, my reputation (as if I had any), and my day-to-day schedule. Whereas the world fights external opposition, I am fighting my own stupidity. I'm tripping over my own feet. I blind myself with my own flashlight. Whatever you do in life: Don't be stupid, don't be ignorant of your basic responsibilities, and don't listen to my foolish advice!

I hate how girls at fox think they're hot stuff when they aren't. #instagramdoesntmakeyouamodel

I was in the bank with my sister and heard a customer say this to a teller...
"Who are you gonna call?"
So I naturally commented just loud enough for my sister to hear...
"Ghostbusters!"

Yeah, I drink alcohol, smoke weed and sometimes do hallucinogens and have had premarital sex but I still have faith. Just because I have a good time and have sex with my girlfriend doesn't mean I'm a bad person or Christian. I believe that god would want us to have a good time and enjoy our lives.

Sometime when I'm driving and I see items in the side of the road I make up stories about them...a pair of children's shoes...a bear...a bed, well that's easy--they just couldn't wait a few more miles.

I am looking forward to coming back to the campus...but not to that freaking clock tower...OMG...

Putting on underwear seductively and ending up putting it on backwards is one of the most embarrassing things ever.