I ditched my first class this morning...

I feel guilty using the handicap shower stall......even though we don't have any handicapped people on our floor.....

There is this freshman on the soccer team, I think his name is Austin or something. But he's so damn hot, I wish he would just rock my world.

I wish people watching was a major because I would get my masters degree 100%. #2cool4skool

Sometimes I wish I were a white female so I can have all of the features that the majority of society considers to be beautiful. It would create one less stress. A lot of people will hate me for this but I can't help my feelings. I want to be more accepted. Sometimes I hate who I am. It's a complicated situation that is very difficult to explain through a confession.

I often dream of getting high and having awesome sex. The man of my dreams is a pot addict...I miss tobacco, alcohol, sex, and pot. With him I had it all, but coming to Fox ended that. Anyone else got bad habits, that feel so good?

I'm a male with self-image problems. I've been like this for over 10 years. I'm never truly happy with my body. I see myself as fat when others don't. I count calories and exercise to stay in shape. This disease/problem has ruled my life without my permission for many years to the point of being depressed. It has brought me down to my knees in tears many times. How was I able to get back up? I'll never know. Feeling defeated and worthless because I couldn't look like the media wanted me to. Starving myself days in and days out to the point of feeling sick. I needed help when I was younger more than ever and maybe I still do now? But I had nowhere to turn due to the fear of being shamed by friends or family. I don't know if I will ever be able to reach out and ask for help now. I've dealt with this for far too long that it almost feels normal to me now.

I think I need God in my life, but I don't know how to get back to him. I feel utterly lost and hopeless most of the time. Whenever I try to get closer to him, I fall off the wagon and end up discouraged.