Sometimes on a cloudy day, especially when there's a break in the clouds, I can look up at the sky and see angels!

I don't know what's scarier today: the homework pile, or the laundry pile. Eeeek!

I'm not ready for a relationship due to some complications i was put through with my last ex. But for some reason I'm starting to like this Guy that's like a brother to me and he's in the military and i know from experience military relationships aren't easy. And he says he'll wait because he likes me too but i told him it could be a couple years before I'm ready to have a relationship again and he's fine with that. He even wants to fly me out to where he's stationed after my birthday to celebrate with me.

But my mind and heart are in two different places and i don't want to hurt him. In one way i wanna be with him but in the other i just wanna have fun and not feel like I'm tied down again....i have no clue what to do

I just hung out with my best friend that I've known since middle school. We totally sparked again. I don't know why we aren't dating or why we never have.

I don't wear or own the following: Dresses, Shorts, skirts, or capris. I only wear full length jeans/jeggings/sweats. If I have a shirt that sleeves don't go at least half way down my arm I will wear something over it. Even then most of the time I wear something with at least half a sleeve I still wear something over it. I tell people it's cuz I'm a heavy set girl. My confession: It's because I have so many scars that I am ashamed of and I dont want the world to see me like that.

I don't attend this college but I've had people add me because they liked what i put as a reply to their posts.

But lately i myself feel so down and lost. Due to some reason events in my life i had to move back in with my family. But I've lost so much within a two months spand. Lost a few best friends, my first lover and some friends. All over "he-said-she-said" drama. I did nothing but say the truth when they asked me a question, i wouldn't lie and even if i tried they knew better. But in the end it was only me that was hurt, and only me that lost so much. sometimes when i listen to certain songs it's like i break all over again but i feel like my family would judge me if i cried.

But i feel so alone and confused but besties those i feel shattered and it's so hard to be happy but i fake the smiles because my little brother is constantly asking if I'm alright and i feel like he's the only one who cares so i smile and say yes and his reply is "good, because i look up to you. You're my inspiration because i know how much you've been through" and that makes me wanna cry because he's only 8.


But i think he knows I'm not always telling the truth because he'll come over and give me a hug and tell me i need to keep fighting and then he'll smile and walk away.


I just.don't know anymore. I feel lost but I'm afraid to cry and be judged because i don't want to deal with that. And afraid to tell them how i feel because them they overthink and think Ima do something that'll be majorly dumb... I just don't know

I love tall white guys with long hair who wear skinny jeans and have piercings and/or tattoos. I my self have 3 sets of ear piercings and a monroe as well as 2 tattoos one on my foot and one on my back and I plan to get more. I am worried I will be shunned by any Christian Community because of my body art

I managed to con my dad into buying me a new laptop.