#416 What makes an ass nice? I know yoga pants supposedly help but I want to know what it should look like. Is is just shape does size matter? Mine is like a beach ball so I don't know if that alone makes it a good one.

#415 My face is a solid 9 but I have no idea what my body is.

#411 My best friend is physically the opposite of me. He is very dark skinned and had what would appear to be a photoshopped body. Me, I'm very pale and "curvy". I know when we stand next to each other we look like the number 10, (him the skinny 1 and me the fat 0) but it bothers me a bit when strangers/his friends I don't know are shocked that we are out somewhere together or even know each other. I mean really, is it so outlandish for a fat girl to be seen in public with a fit guy?

He is just a friend mine you, but a good one. He is single so if my little description strikes your interest ladies comment and I'll let him know to look your way ok :)

#414 I fucked one of the RA's the first week of school. Never again, and don't you fucking try to explain why you farted bacon bits out of your ass into my face.

#413 When I was younger I was bullied a bit by various kids, although I was lucky that it was more verbal than physical. I wasn't able to defend myself a whole lot since I was a wimpy nerd with bad social skills and a nice guy. All the while this was happening my parents just reassured me that they were just jealous that I was in a better position than them. (stable family, middle class as opposed to poor, etc.) I used to think that my parents were just wrong, until I grew up and looked back at things.

It turns out they were right. Those bullies ended up either moving away due to divorced families or had to suffer in the same town that I grew up in. They grew up to have bad attitudes which led to drug abuse and separating their relationships with their parents, which sometimes led to their parents divorcing since they were disappointed that they raised such a child (and other reasons, I'm sure). Luckily, while some of them still lead destructive lifestyles today, some have actually cleaned up and became my friends after all these years.

But I don't hate those people for what they did to me, if anything I should thank them. They taught me a valuable lesson that however you treat someone will always have an impact on them, no matter how small or large it may be. They taught me just how much hatred and kindness can strengthen an individual, whether mentally or physically. This is why relationships are important and should be treasured and taken care of, otherwise you may end up with a lovechild who was treated badly and goes off to treat others badly, continuing the vicious cycle.

So now whenever someone judges me negatively without me having to do anything, I smile and laugh. They have told me with more than words that they are mentally ill, and have given me the power to fuck with them by doing whatever I want. For the graves of the bullies that I've soiled have taught me to do so, for the cycle continues.

#412 All my life I have assumed that I had some form of speech impediment. It's been quite a struggle trying to communicate with people from time to time, because if I'm not able to think about the next sentence I am going to say for about 10 seconds then it comes out all scrambled and the other person has no idea what I am talking about. Last year I got tested at the psychology clinic to see if I had some learning or speech disorder but of course they still haven't had my results yet. Can anyone relate?

#410 If you wear a fedora without a suit, I immediately assume you have autism.

#409 I think people just tolerate me. Use me when they need me. Invite me when they feel sorry for me. Just gonna say the fake attitude is causing me to seriously consider disappearing. No one would miss me. Crazy thing is if these friends were real they would know whether or not I am ok and would help me work things out.