#495 The organizations I'm in right now are getting boring. What are some good ones I could join? Or some fun things I could do on or around campus? Where I can meet new people? I don't want to be stuck in my apartment all the time.

#494 I was bullied extensively in high school for being a "cock sucking little faggot" just because I liked things like Pokemon instead of the "shit on MTV that normal people are supposed to like". I could take all the name calling, the beatings, being left out of all activities, the stolen lunch money, and the humiliation, one time though they went too far. Just days before graduating, Some douche spilled paint all over me and one of the teachers let me go shower in the locker room. just before I finished I was jumped by the same douchebags that always fucked with me ever since middle school, beaten, and then raped by the three of them right there on the shower floor. Somehow I didn't sustain any long term injuries nor STDs to this day, I've tested, I just remember lying there on a bloody floor crying in a fetal position for what was probably hours. I never told anyone because they told me I'd be raped and then killed if I ever did. I took 1 and a half years off before I started college to go live with my grandmother in Lewisville just to get the fuck away from my hated town and clear my head of everything that's happened since middle school. I recently found out in my town's online news site that 2 of those fuckers that raped me died in a drunken burning car crash and the other one got life in prison for murder and robbery which, even though I shouldn't smile at others' misfortunes, made me the happiest I'd been in years and felt like a huge weight was lifted of my shoulders. I still though, have flash backs and nightmares about that horrible day, I still have random episodes where I break down into tears and I have crippling trust issues and gag at the thought of sex because of everything that happened. Here at UNT I started in Spring 2013. I've met the sweetest people, and made what is honestly the first friend I've ever had in my life, I never knew what friendship was before this and I didn't know that things like kindness and loyalty in others was even possible before since every one in my high school was honestly a piece of shit excuse for a human being. I'm glad those dark days are finally over and I can start fresh, thanks UNT!

#493 I have a weird problem of not being able to get rid of an erection after I orgasm. It gets awkward when I have to go somewhere right after masturbating and my erection won't go away. It takes close to ten minutes with no stimulation for it to finally become flaccid again.

#492 I think the girl from 311 needs to meet a few more guys. I don't like talking about myself, but I personally am not the guy who's just like "lets watch some movies so i can try and hook up with you the second time we've ever hung out" type thing.

#491 Last night's dream:
I'm laying in my dorm bed reading a book. I look up and see a strange girl giving a blowjob to a strange guy in my room. I have no idea who they are, but the girl asks me "How would like a little bit of this action?" Suddenly her smoking hot friend comes into the room pulls out my dick and administers my first blowjob (I'm still a virgin). It was glorious!! Come to find out (still in the dream) there is a Find the Biggest Penis Contest on campus. The girl won and I had the biggest penis on campus. Best. Dream. Ever.

#490 I want a refund on my fucking "premium" parking pass.

#489 So I met this girl at the club the other week and we danced, I got to know her a little, we made out and I got her number in the end. Know the next day she texts me saying I should come up to her work when she gets off at 12...me being a single guy for 5 years and really liking her text her back saying "ill be there". So the next day comes, I walk in around 11:30 she spots me and runs up to me giving me a flying hug...at this point im feeling like a million bucks...now she stops working sits down with me we talk, laugh, share stories, turns out we have a ton of stuff in common by this time shes in my arms holding my hand...Im done ,shes got me hooked, Cupid has shot his arrow...she clocks out and I walk her to her car we processed to hold eachother and make out. That night i text her saying "good night i hope i get to see you again" she replies "night babe"... in my head im thinking my moms going to love this girl... next day I text her goodmorning...no text back I wait till around 9 and text her again...no text back...ok maybe she lost her phone or its off so i snapchat her the next day...she opens it but no reply. its been 2 days now and still nothing...i dont know what to do

#488 Sometimes, while sitting alone, I think about the red wedding again. And I get really, really sad. Again.