#4412 Jesus was black! Science says it and history the same. The roman Catholic church turned him white. Do the reseach yea you'll be shocked.

#4416 FYI, this is a lame and depressing post. If you don't feel like hearing someone whine about their sad life, keep scrolling.

I'm a strange person. I tend to push people away that try to get close, yet I yearn for nothing but intimacy in any form. I've never really had a friend whom I can just sit there and talk about life with. I've never really had anyone who I felt was "there" for me. I've been depressed and suicidal since I was a pre-teen.

I'm not sad anymore like I used to be. I'm just completely numb. I simply don't feel many emotions anymore. My self-esteem is bi-polar as fuck as well. One day I'll feel like a McStud Muffin walking around campus, and other days I'll just stare at myself in the mirror and think about how disgusting I look. I get laid fairly often and have decently attractive females find me attractive as well. I just feel like shit about myself often.

I'm fairly intelligent as well and have no problem getting good grades if I put effort in. Here lately, though, I've given up. I'm not quite sure if I want to live anymore. I've always been suicidal, but this is different. Before, my suicidal rages were always halted by an undying love for life and Earth and my refusal to lay down and submit to my own destruction. I don't have that anymore. I'm a self destructive person and a plague to myself. I genuinely believe it may be best for me if I just finally ended it all.

I mean, if someone has been suicidal and depressed for nearly a decade, I think that should mean something. Perhaps this isn't as "temporary" as everyone has made me to believe. What if my chronic depression and other mental problems will never be cured? Do I really want to drag myself through life everyday, clinging onto the hope that it will go away, only to have the absolute worst let-down of my life as I grow older?

I don't think I want that. Shit, life is interesting and cool as fuck, and I would hate to miss how mine and the rest of the world's story unfolds (I do love a good story), but I've really exhausted my grip on life here. I could strive to be my best. I could get addicted to drugs. I could ruin lives. I could save them. I could even maintain the state I'm in now for the rest of my life. I could do whatever I want, but I don't see much point.

I think it may be my time to leave.

#4411 My boyfriend and I are looking for another girl for a threesome. Does anyone have any idea how we would find someone?

#4410 [CREEPY] To the guy who lives across the street from me in the ghetto apartments off Bonnie Brae... you drive an Explorer, wear aviators frequently, and have tattoos... I'm just letting you know that you are drop dead gorgeous and when I see you walking your dog I try very hard not to stare. I get nervous walking to my fucking mailbox, worried you'll be out there and see me without make-up on. I'm moving in a few months and I'll miss you the most. [/CREEPY]

#4409 I don't understand why my roommate uses my and my suite mates' toilet paper and doesn't replace it. She steals it from the school anyway.

#4408 Dear Girls in Clark,

Can you work on not being annoying cunts at all hours of the day? Go be annoying bitches somewhere else.
R.As and asking you to be quiet doesn't work, why are you so fucking inconsiderate at 2 in the fucking morning?

#4407 I came to school this year telling myself I was going to behave. I've done coke, acid, shrooms, speed, xanax, and obviously pot on the regular since the 2nd week of the year... Oops

#4406 I came to UNT because of the art program and how liberal it is but I've had the worst luck. First semester I lived with 3 random people , all of which were extremely straight edge and judgmental. I moved 8 hours away from home and still have to lie and pretend I'm an angel. Now I live with one other person who is super religious and intolerant to normal college fun. WHY ME?! Never getting randomly assigned roommates again!