#4611 When I was much younger, right around the time I was hitting puberty, I had an inappropriate sexual problem with my sister that lasted two years. She was even younger than me. Yes, I was abused at a young age and grew up in a sick environment, but that does not excuse what I did. Once I got older and realized the damaged I caused I understood the gravity of what I did. Since then, I have never been able to be in a relationship with anyone. I can’t associate sexual feelings with anything positive so my body doesn’t handle intimacy well. I don’t like to be touched. I could never even bring myself to kiss anyone. I almost never think about sex except as an act of biological cleansing (masturbation) that happens once every week. She is living a rough life now and there’s nothing I can do to reverse what I’ve done. I don’t know what I’m going to do with my life either. Pretty much just stay in my room and read books as much as possible. I am terribly afraid to go outside. If there was some way I could right my wrongs I might be able to function and live life, but how can anyone fix something that’s irreversible? The few times we’ve talked since (via text), I’ve asked her to seek counseling and get some help. Obviously there’s nothing else I can or should do. Can’t sleep often, and when I do it is very restless. Nightmares all the time. They happen so frequently that I kind of forgot what a real dream feels like. Anyway, this has gone on long enough. Just wanted to post it to get some peace of mind and hopefully see if any opportunities out there exist in regards to righting my wrongs, because I can’t think of any and want to dedicate my life to bringing more good into the world than the bad I have wrought.

#4610 My friend doesnt know I had clogged his toilet when I tried to clean myself up after I shit myself for the first time, and my girlfriend doesnt know I pissed the bed after a night of drinking. How the fuck I managed to hide it both times, is beyond me. I just kept my cool.

#4610 I broke up with my boyfrien but now I want him back so this ugly chick hes talkin too wont make me look bad.

#4610 There are two types of people on the UNT confessions. The people who lurk, and the people who comment on every fucking post.

#4610 I've met so many Wicca people, it's starting to creep me out. Is this an omen? Am I secretly evil or am I a puppet in some cruel Wiccan/Voodoo plot to achieve my downfall and permanent corruption? O_o

I need to get my ass back in church and stop being so paranoid.

#4610 One of the main things that keeps my relationship healthy is letting each other makeout with other people at parties. Reinforcement that we're still desirable to other people, and relieves some of that "oh no I'm super tied down" stress. I think if more people let go of their jealousy for a little bit they could have a stronger relationships.

#4610 Our new Student Body President, the one that got arrested not even a week after he won the elections, is a racist ass. I'm sorry that we blacks have been under privileged in the past, but seriously, when you begin to favor only blacks over all the other races, how different are you from the old white men who used to oppress us, huh? Also the whole "diversity" stuff that he ran on during his campaign is Bullshit... the whole damn thing.

and no im not a white guy, in fact im actually black male as well.

#reverseracism

#4610 I have been clinically diagnosed OCD and am taking medications and going to therapy to try to deal with the obsessions and compulsions. It is a daily struggle and literally controls my life. Because of how tough this has been on me, I get really annoyed/upset when I hear someone say "Oh, I am SO OCD about (insert whatever here)"… No, sweetie, that's called being organized, particular, or even anal. When it starts to become something that you HAVE to do before you can do or think about anything else, then talk to me. Until then, just stop.