Hello my name is Ryan, and to all of you who are bitching about everything or insulting everybody else... fuck off / get over it. Talk to some friends and laugh about something. I'll get you started, haha. See? It's fun.

so who is the admin for unt confession and when do they ever sleep

A number of years ago, I was going through a really rough time in my life, and it seemed the only way out was self harm. I cut upwards to 50 or 60 times a day, burned myself, and anything else that would bring me pain, just so I could remember what it felt like to feel again. Some people may think that my issues weren't that bad. I was just overreacting, or doing it for attention. Truth is, life at that point was horrible and painful, and I never told anybody until after it was all done. It got to the point that I though that the best thing for me to do was to kill myself. So I took my family gun, loaded it, aimed, and pulled the trigger. But nothing happened. The bullet turned out to be a dud. A dead bullet. I as soon as that hammer hit, and I realized what happened, I dropped that gun. I realized that I just screwed up big time. That click made me realize that what I thought was killing me was only making me stronger in the long run.
Now, I'm not the biggest in religion, and I don't want to offend anybody, but I truly believe that something saved me that day, both from that gun and myself. Since that day, I've never tried to kill myself again, I've never cut again, and I got myself better. But it was hard. Incredibly hard. Even today I have issues and urges to cut again. But I've learned to reach out to those close to me. If I can do it, you can too. One of the biggest issues for me was thinking that nobody cared, and I know that that's a common belief. Truth is, we just don't look around. If you're thinking of suicide, or even hurting yourself, look around. There is somebody close to you that you can go to. Someone that will listen to you, help you, and be there for you when you need them. They're there. I guarantee it.

I gave a guy a blow job and now he won't leave me alone. It was a one time thing! Now leave me alone!

To the girl in the red hoodie I saw on the way to class today. I just masturbated to you.

to Sierra B. you are by far the HOTTEST girl in Maple Hall... Damn sexxy!!!!

Sometimes I think I'm a Time Lord.

I'm depressed here at UNT. I don't have many friends and my life isn't headed in a direction I had planned. Every once in a while I wonder what it would be like to kill myself. Just curiosity and all.....