Usually I identify as gay, but last night I only had the desire to jerk it to vaginas. How does this happen?

Worried I might be a misanthrope. Have lots of difficulty expressing my emotions and when I'm in a social situation I tend to just tend to give up talking in favor of getting lost in my own mind. Hate myself for things I've done in my past and the things that have been done to me, but I also hate that my misery causes people around me to feel stress and sadness. I want to be more positive and compassionate. My family keeps referring me to church, but I've been to churches of many different faiths many different times and felt nothing. I even tried smoking weed and drinking to help take the edge off social situations, but weed makes me paranoid and I hold my liquor way too well. There's got to be a way to snap out of this shit. I need a moment of clarity so strong and so potent that it rejuvenates me and gets me going.

To all the people who claim to be in love with someone they can't have, or with someone who has a significant other, or whatever: SHUT THE FUCK UP. You can't be "in love" with someone you haven't even dated. That would be called a crush, or liking them. You don't know what love is and you just sound like a pathetic loser.

It pisses me off when I get into a disagreement with someone and then they ask how old I am and I tell them I'm 18 and then they automatically think I'm a fucking idiot. Yes, I understand I'm young but I'm not running around saying "YOLO" as an excuse for stupid things I do. I'm at least aware that I don't have the world figured out yet and I try to improve myself every day. Just give me (and I'm sure a lot of other people) a break. Don't be so quick to jump to conclusions about someone just because of their age.

Typical group project scenario: 4 person group project. Their is always 1 person that designates themselves has the unofficial leader. 1 person that just follows along with everything the "leader" says. 1 person that always disagrees and has a 'negative attitude' and one person that doesn't do anything aka the lazy ass. We would love to go with what the leader has to say about the group member because it's assumed he/she did most of the work. Just because someone refuses to use a person's ideas and time doesn't mean he/she was lazy.

I got something to say. The majority of you that eat at the dining halls throw your food away, entire plates. THERE ARE PEOPLE STARVING ALL AROUND THE WORLD. But you rather get more than you can handle and then throw entire plates away. I've seen this in every UNT dining hall. You people are just pathetic and have never gone through hunger. Don't fucking throw food away. Damn hipsters.

I broke up with my girlfriend 6.5 months ago for being a cheating whore. Just recently, she's started messaging me again. And to make things even better, she's still with the guy she cheated on me with! Like hell. I know what she wants, and she's sure as fuck not getting it.

I can't wait legalization of marijuana. Although, it upsets me that Texas might be the last state to legalize it. What if we were allowed to smoke on campus or in class? Also what if they developed a "weed smoking class" like wine tasting but for smoking pot? I'm not the only one that can see that happening come on. I honestly think students that are in class having a great time will help more people come to class, more people want to learn, and learn more about other students and their ideas. I'm sick of these classes that we sit for 2 hours listening to someone talk about a subject without any motivation for wanting higher knowledge . They have no enthusiasm or passion whatsoever. We need more teacher to student interactions and student to student interactions. I hate the way education is today. I feel like the government uses the "higher education nonsense" to get more money and take classes that students usually don't learn anything in. UNT is filled with teachers that just want their students to regurgitate information on a piece of paper. That's not what true education is. We have no creativity. No enlightenment. No application. No striving for discovery. No passion. We need new educational ideas because honestly college today is a joke and a .

Sincerely, super high college student with many creative ideas
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