Any white girls here into Asian dudes? Can't seem to find any?

I am one of those people that jumps in head first. I get attached easily and I get myself in horrible situations where I think there is more to what is actually going on. I cant wait until that moment where I jump head first and then there is that girl that jumps in with me.

There are still times I think that suicide would have been the best thing for me.

I'm having a panic attack and i'm really contemplating suicide. asking God for strength right now, I'm so over it all

I can't believe I'm crying over a guy right now. I really really like him but he doesn't talk to me. We have a lot of mutual friends so we see each other occasionally, but we've never really got to talk. He barely talks to me even when I try to talk to him first. Like when I tried to talk to him at a party, he'd be nice and say something back but wouldn't try to keep the conversation going and just walk away to his friends. Sometimes when I texted him asking if he wanted to hang out with me and some of our friends, he just ignored my text. I don't know what to do. I just want to be friends with him and get to know him better. I don't get why it's so hard. I'm so frustrated.

Every time you say "ratchet," I want to punch you in the mouth.

I had the most amazing sex of my life a few weeks ago with an amazing virgin guy that I've had a crush on for a long time. He said he would call but he never did. I don't regret the sex, I just regret letting myself think it was more than that... because he asked me to be his girlfriend, but then said it was too soon (1 month) after a long term relationship he just got out of. Sow now I'm just kind of miserable. I may never even see him again. Ugh :(

251 is the highlight of my week.