I hope David B doesn't kill himself ://///

The main reason I don't believe in hell is that there is nothing so painful that a human won't eventually learn to fetish it given enough time.

Like if you've had a drink or 50 before you turned 21;)

Confession Connection:

Me: Wearing my umbrella like a sword on my back.

You: Wondering why in the world I am wearing my umbrella like a sword on my back.

I know that I am 19 and in college, but what I want more than anything is just to get married and have a family. I'm so tired of running through the motions. Everything else seems like a waste of time. I've been through hell and back and I honestly just want to find the person that loves me and settle down.

To that backstabbing girl who I've always been there for. Fuck you. I'm done.

Neither of us are single, but a good guy friend of mine told me about something really sexy and sorta kinky that he did with his girlfriend. Since then, I can't stop fantasizing about him doing that with me. Is that bad?

I'm one of the people contemplating suicide. For me its not about just finals, its my life in general. I've found that everyone I talk to is very helpful, I just can't find the motivation to go out and change my life. I sometimes wonder how regular people live their lives, with real emotion, instead of the numbness I feel. I always end up thinking about things I regret doing, and how I can't wait to leave college. I just don't know what I'm going to do for the rest of my life. What this degree I'm going to get is going to get me (assuming that I even graduate). I really considered joining the armed forces to sacrifice my life for the United Corporations of America. I'd be perfectly fine if I knew I died for a reason in combat, for those I love and care about.