#5553 I don't remember when it started. Maybe in the latter half of high school. I only started to acknowledge it over winter break. Times of trouble and stress cause me to slip out of my body, rendering me a lifeless shell. I feel like each interaction I have or am supposed to have with my surroundings becomes incredibly insignificant. I don't have thoughts, I don't have emotions, I just kind of exist. I usually stare at a wall, or the ceiling. Sometimes it'll pass in a few seconds, maybe a few minutes. Sometimes it'll last a few days. I've thought about suicide three times total during these periods of existing, not because of sadness but because of lack of feeling. Lack of anything, at all. I've been on medication almost my whole life, primarily for mood disorder and depression, although they don't seem to do anything to remedy these feelings. What's stranger is that to almost everyone I interact with, I seem happy, fulfilled, and functional, and for the most part this is true. It usually doesn't interfere with my work but it's starting to affect how I see the world. It seems like everything is becoming dull and losing its edge, very slowly. It seems like there's an extra layer between me and the rest of the world, even with the people I love. I'm happy to have loving friends and family because without them I would be lost forever.

#5552 Loh is the Hans to Elsa's reign over UMD right now. #Frozen

#5551 Alpha Chi Sigma is the reason I passed Orgo II, so yeah.

#5550 The girl I have a huge crush on basically uses/used me for schoolwork help. She doesn't reciprocate my feelings, because I told her months ago I liked her, yet continues to flirt with me, especially around the time of a quiz or test. I know this, yet I love getting attention from her. How pathetic is that?

#5549 I have a really bad habit of unintentionally picking up the accent, speech pattern and mannerisms of the person I’m talking with, and it’s awful because I’m so worried that if they notice, they’ll think I’m making fun of them when I really have no idea that I’m doing it until afterwards. I think I’m just a really easily impressionable person…If I’ve been watching a series on TV for a while, I catch myself in accents or the speech patterns of some of the characters. Maybe that’s why I’ve always been able to do impressions. It’s so bad, though, when I’m talking with somebody and I unconsciously start doing it, especially if it’s an accent way off from mine or mannerisms that I never do, because then how can’t the other person notice and not think I’m being awfully rude and making fun of them.

#5548 Honestly, why are the Cambridge RA's so against us having alcohol in the dorms?

#5547 I’m honestly tired of people celebrating differences at the cost of others. I’m so tired of my pseudo-activist friends posting articles on things like “Curvy is the New Sexy!” and people who call themselves ‘feminists’ but really just like to pick and choose what they like about the movement. “Women are equal to men! We should make the same money and men shouldn’t hit us and stop harassing us and stop judging us on what we wear. BUT men should buy us things and hold doors open and it’s empowering and badass for women to hit men!”

Let’s get honest here. A fat girl is a fat girl if clinically speaking, her weight is significantly above average for her height and age. So she’s fat. But that doesn’t make her any less beautiful. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, and to me, personality, mannerisms, morals, fashion style, signs that you care about your own appearance—all in varying degrees of importance but all factors in whether someone is attractive or not to me. (By the way, the UK’s got a lovely show called “Look Good Naked” and it’s about a stylist who shows women of a wide range of weights how to rock their shape without changing a thing.) It seems terribly hypocritical that so called ‘activists’ try to raise the morale of fat girls by shaming skinny girls. Skinny shaming is just as bad as fat shaming. Why is any size more beautiful than the other? What they’re doing to skinny girls is no better than what society does to fat girls and it frankly makes them look stupid and ill-informed. Stop celebrating differences at the cost of others.

Fake feminists. Feminism should really be called humanism, because all its points are about treating both genders with equal respect and dignity, and really, isn’t that what we should be doing anyways? It’s so embarrassing that we actually have to movements for this shit when it should be common sense. But it’s so irritating when people jump on the bandwagon and just start picking and choosing what they like. Sorry, honey, it doesn’t work like that. It’s not cool for men to hit women, and it’s not cool for women to hit men. Spousal abuse happens in all forms. True equality is about giving back just as much as you take. So your date treats you to dinner and makes you feel special and like a princess. Good! Then next time, you can do something nice for him, treat him to a meal and show him you care about him just as much. He buys you something, then buy him something back. Don’t make such a big deal about “men still have to treat women to things, blah blah blah”.

Oh lawd, that was long. Well, that’s my bit on this.

#5546 I swear if I slip on ice tomorrow, I'm going to hunt UMD squirrel down and eat him out of revenge.