#5889 My brother has autism and... I'm gonna be honest, it makes my life a living hell: the way he always starts shouting random things for no reason, the way he embarrasses our family in public.
I know he's my brother and I should love him. I know he didn't choose to be born this way. I know I'm being an ableist asshole for the way I think. I try to tell myself all this whenever he acts up, I REALLY REALLY TRY, and I fail each and every time.
I scream at him to shut the fuck up and stop bothering me. I scream at him to stop embarrassing me in public. I don't want to do this.
Honestly, I've thought of suicide more than once: if I can't change the way he is or change the way I act towards him, then I'm just gonna kill myself. At least that way, I won't be able to be an shitty, ableist brother to him anymore. I don't deserve to live.

#5888 Yesterday (Saturday), I went to the gym. When I got there, I immediately went towards the vacant Smith Machine, my favorite bench press, but right before I got there some big fish shouldered me and asked me "how tough are you?" I asked him if he had a bottle of ketchup and he happened to have one. He handed it to me and I held it firmly in my left hand. I placed my right hand on the "lid" (my friend Pat has trouble with finding lids) and with all my strength tried to open the bottle. Unfortunately, even with my utmost power I could not open the ketchup bottle. He laughed at me and called me yellow. I was embarrassed but at least I didn't have to go weeny hut junior. this time.

#5887 One time this girl threw her panties on my face trying to be sexy but the only problem was her panties smelled really bad, like yeast infection bad.

#5886 Hi my names ****** and idk what it is but there's definitely something wrong with me

#5885 Every break, all of my friends leave College Park and I become so lonely and bored. Additionally, anyone know of a site to meet cool people. I only have like 4 friends on campus and rarely see them outside of school.

#5884 Honestly I'm tried of looking stupid because I don't know how to/don't want to grind. Why do we have to dance so sexually?

#5883 i miss my relationship when it was good and i wasn't away at school. but i realized i'm in college and i am here to have fun and live my life

#5882 I cheated on my first love years ago and still regret it to this day. But looking back i cant remember if i was actually in love with him or just really wanted a bf and not be a virgin anymore. He was the first guy to say that he loved me and ever since i havent been able to get the same type of feeling or support, that I once got from him, from any other guy. I try to avoid it but I still talk to my ex but I believe im the cause of him being so fucked up mentally right now (besides all of the other girls he told me have cheated on him before). I want to be with him but now he wastes a lot time just getting by, and he also drinks heavily now. He says that he still loves me but our long distance relationship is what really got to me when we were together. I hate that this is what I think about almost every fucking day.

No one is probably going to read this but I dont feel like theres much to live for besides being happily in a relationship with him...please dont ever cheat on your boyfriend or girlfriend and fuck up like I did. :(