#20325 I'm just a burden. I'm invisible to so many people. It's really better if I just go. I'm a mistake. I'm no good.

I've been getting help for two years now. I've even been in the hospital. I won't be okay.

I'm trying to fight my thoughts and stay alive for those who might care or might need me, but when I consider the whole picture, it seems like the world would be a better place if I was dead, even if some beings are saddened by it. They just don't understand how much better it will be yet. Or maybe I've been lied to for the sake of morality, and they won't really care.

I should go.

#20324 There's nothing much more boring or more annoying than cold case. Like let's bring up some past cases that nobody gave a fuck about before, when it was happening, so we can hear how they investigated it, now when nobody cares, except old people, wanna be cops, and those who have nothing more to do but screen 'MERICA, live in unemployment, and support the blue...

#20323 I feel like being a nice girl is slowly eating my life... I know that questioning myself after the failure of one single relationship isn't the right thing to do, but it's really hard to be nice and cool all the time. It's just like you can't expect that much from me. I gotta be smart and mature, can't crave for attention, gotta be classy, kind, loving, independent, strong, and most importantly gotta be happy all the time. if I only had a tiny bit of attitude I would be called cold, snobbish, or just simply a bitch. I have emotions, I'm not programmed to have these characteristics. I can't be all of these. Sometimes I kind of wish people just admit that they hate me so I can stop trying to pull my heart out to an ass. It would be a relief.

#20322 Don't wanna say it in front of my friends but for those who don't like Adele's new song Hello, I feel yall. I fucking hate it too. Would she ever just stop bitching about her ex? People are trying to move on. But apparently for some reason most women love this shit.

#20321 Any thoughts on starting relationships while long distance? I feel like you can't really get to know someone while long distance, anyone have any opinions?

#20320 I should be in an exam right now, but there's no point. I haven't attended class in the last month and I couldn't begin to tell you how to solve any of the practice problems. I'm already on academic probation and I'm gonna fail this semester and get kicked out.
I'm throwing my future away and I can't even care. I don't know if I have some sort of mental condition or I'm just another lazy genius who's going to fail in life because he has no work ethic or self-control.

#20319 I used to get excited when I saw her, I was unable to get that goofy smile off my face, I'd admire her when she spoke, and I heard everything she said, too. The only problem is that one day out of the blue she stopped texting back, she stopped posting on Facebook, our eyes would cross down hallways and she would bolt... I have no idea what I did too for her to hate me or ignore me, but it is what it is I guess... :/

#20313 My balls hit the water when im shitting. I cant be the only one with this problem.