#23721 Earlier this year I was asked to be in my high school best friend's bridesmaid for her wedding during the fall of this year. We haven't been able to catch up much lately, especially since she goes to school in another state, but it seems like she doesn't even want me as a friend anymore. I try to text her and I pretty much get short replies. She comes home and I don't even know about it, and when I ask her to go out for lunch or something it seems like she's always busy with something. She has been my best friend for 8 years and I never want to lose her, but I feel like she's moved on and is probably just putting me in her wedding as an add in or just because she feels like she has to. Now I'm supposed to help her sister plan a bachelorette party, and I don't think I can even do that because I'm afraid she's changed so much and she won't even like anything I come up with..

#23720 To that Asian guy (Filipino, I think?) twerking at Cactus the other night... Hmu. I'm gay for you.

#23719 I haven't confessed anything on here in quite awhile, and I'm going to try the best I can to get my thoughts out..here it goes.

So I've been thinking a lot about myself as person and life in general, and I've come to the conclusion that maybe it's better off if in gone. I've suffered from suicidal thoughts since I was in seventh grade and I've attempted things before..twice really. I don't know why I'm like this, but I hate myself for it. I didn't have a very good life growing up, but I didn't let it change my perspective on things. But it's been hard...I don't ever let people in. I'm really bad about it, and usually I tend to push people before they get to close. But I made that mistake..and I let someone get to close. but that was because they saw straight through the mask, they saw straight through the funny guy. And for three years I kept everything a secret...by the time they knew the real me they were already gone. And mylife has been a living ever since. I have no one that I talk to I dropped of college at the beginning of the year to try and deal with everything but my life has progressively gotten worse... Everyone I care about is leaving. I found out my uncle has cancer and he's probably bot going to make it...my great grandmother the person that's been there or me my whole life just past away of a heart attack...my mothers never been in the picture, my father left my very ill step mother..my brothers and sister have been torn away from each other...Im really Falling apart .. I don't know what to do I feel myself slipping.. I have no one to talk to... I just don't want to feel anything anymore.

#23718 I feel like I'm so heartless that I won't ever do good in a relationship... Anyone of my family could die, and yet I'll still see people with more sympathy and more heart break for any celebrity than I do...

#23717 this spring has sucked. first bowie dies then prince and to top it off the weather has not been hot enough for the ladies to show some skin

#23716 I just want to graduate and move on. I like it here but I am so ready for the next step in my life. as Colin Hay sang...I'm just waiting for my real life to begin.

#23715 I'm pretty sure America is just the give up nation now...

#23714 Number-wise, I've only pressed the 3 button on the microwave for the last 10 years or so. Not even sure why, I don't do this stuff in any other aspect of my life. It's gone on too long now that I can't stop.