To the the girl in my CCJ 250 class that I thought was a lesbian, I wish you really were. I see you in class and want to get to know you and take you on dates and spoil you. You are kinda perfect.
Sincerely,
A wishful lesbian who's going crazy for you

I really want to be somebody's "bitch". Like being bossed around all day by a guy, making him breakfast, being his sex slave every night where he ties up my hands and pulls my hair and fucks me however he wants, stuff like that. I don't know it seems fun

So I am basically a 19 yr old male virgin. None of my friends know because it really isn't that big of a deal. I have also been single for just about 2 years. Those who have confessed being a "waiter" I'm right there with you. I also figured since a chick could confess about having a source of potassium in her anal cavaity I could post something like this.

I'm not a happy person. There is so much angre and saddens built up inside me, but you would never know. A long time ago I saw a picture of my uncle who had passed away. He was a heavy drinker apperently, although I never knew that. When I saw pictures of him all I saw was a buff man who carried himself like he was on top of the world. As a child I looked up to this picture and I worked out and tried to live healthy so one day I could look like the man he was.

I have know idea how this man thought of himself, or how happy he was, but he ended his own life and when I found out about this I realized something. It doesn't matter how I feel about myself or my life or whatever, I can be a symbol for other people. Maybe if a child doesn't undergo a the series of events I have he can live happily and look up to me as a model to build himself around.

So as a result, I don't mope, I carry myself like I am proud and keep up on my health so maybe I can motivate someone else or give them hope that you can be something in this world. You would never know that I hate waking up, because my life feels like a nightmare worse then any I've had, you would never know I wanted to shove a bullet in my mouth countless times, you would never know that when I'm alone I lose my shit and ball my eyes out.

Nobody will ever know, and that way I can inspire others. That's all I feel I have left to give to this world.

Apparently I didn't get the memo that every college girl is suppose to wear leggings and knee high boots.....seriously you would think when you see thousands of girls that look just like you do you would want to change it up. Definitely not conforming to this bull shit.

To the few that walked by my room in the Suites, I am Spider-Man.

To the girl walking to downtown in a long white dress with red in the back and a white coat... you were simply beautiful. :) You were poised, classy and elegant and I really liked that. Thank you for showing me that women can be beautiful without showing skin. :)

I don't have feelings for my Friend-with-Benefits, but I am ofended that he doesn't have feelings for me.