My girlfriend and I broke up a while back, there was a lot of mixed emotions after the break up, it felt that we both loved one another. But the timing just wasn't right for us, she was finishing school, I wasn't starting a career. I am broken and completely undesrwater. I thought I was gonna marry this woman. I thought she was my everything, but it's seems that every day that passes what we had wasn't worth enough. crying every night because all you want to do is be the guy that she feel on love with. I'll always love her and I'll always respect her but I'm scared that she will find someone else; dear nau I miss you.

How is 2016 already almost over?? like this bitch just came in fucked us up then left like she gave us a gift

Idk if I was raped. About 2 years ago I just wanted to dry hump and make-out but he started teasing me with his dick. I told him no, I don't want to have him penetrate me but he did. I was horny so it felt good but it's just weird that I said no and he did anyways.

Idk if I've sexually assaulted someone because with a different guy 5 years ago, we were cuddling and he got a boner and he smiled and I said do you want to go to the bedroom and I heard sure and we did stuff but a few years later he told me he didn't actually want to but he never said no so how was I to know.

You guys. Sexuality is so freaking confusing.

I've almost been raped and that was intentional, told me my roommates wouldn't come out if I screamed, threatened to show nudes to my uber religious/conservative parents at 19.

But then the thing that traumatized me the most was having old lady gynecologist fingers in my pussy for a check-up.

I have a masturbation addiction as a female, like I put the blanket between my legs, cross them, and pull. It feels good but it hurts my hand to be pulling at a blanket, a pillow, and I've resorted to random articles of clothing.

That sounds hot but my knees hurt and my hands, they look practically arthritic at the end. Red, swollen. And YES, I have tried a dildo, not the same. I don't burn calories, which YES, I do burn calories this method with all the squeezing and pulling.

Which comes to the point that I'm 170 pounds, I don't look it, but I am. I want to exercise, I've even tried fixing my sleep. Every once and a while I do random bouts of exercise but because of executive functioning I have a hard time making a routine. So my body ALSO masturbates as a way for me to get in exercise.

Have I tried using a boyfriend for getting off, yes, thank you observant person. We have a hard time having sex at weird times because neither of us are in the best of shape (even though we just hiked a shit ton all over the summer). Have I tried getting a different boyfriend, shut the fuck up you insensitive prick, I love him.

So you know what, sex, love, consent, weight loss, and all of this fucking bullshit is freaking confusing. If you wanna give advice, great, go ahead. 100% guaranteed that I've heard it before. I'd give 50$ to someone who could fix my life. Tried getting therapists and they don;t do shit. Tried medication, but there's more, there's always more.

Growing up religious made me asexual til 18 until the masturbation addiction, but then I still like some of the church and would LOOOVE to be back in the community if I wasn't the whore of the west or some shit.

I avoid alcohol but subconsciously I worry because I KNOW I have addiction issues. I worry about taking so much medication, what if I rely on it, I CANNOT rely on it.

I don't know if anything actually makes me happy and if that is a chemical depression or if that's the kind of depression that comes from trying so desperately hard to become a normal human being but realizing you are so dramatically different from everyone else that you are no longer a special snowflake but you are a special fucking ocean of issues.

Any then you feel bad because others have it harder and easier and both.

Congrats if you made it this far, you deserve a cookie. Except nobody would want my cookies. I'm not a bad cook but I'm pretty sure I have radioactive powers to push people away except I don't otherwise how would I have a long-term boyfriend. Trickery? IDFK, if it is, then I am /reaaaaallly/ damn good at it.

Have a nice day :D

I don't understand why people have to be complete asshats to the traffic directors on campus. Literally every time I walk up to an intersection where there's someone directing traffic, there's someone being an asshole. They're doing their job. Quit being a dick.

ya know what’s kind of weird? some people name cats “whiskers.” that’s a cat’s body part. that’s so wild. i’m gonna name my son leg

I took a shit in someone's car tonight. That should teach them to not leave their window open.

To the lovely young lady on the 4th floor of the W.A. Business building yesterday (Tuesday), who picked up my Dear Stranger letter in the green-ish seat, I think someone may have pointed me out to you (occasionally, if I have time, I like to see who picks up the little letters of encouragement). Please don't tell anyone! Knowing that a specific, identifiable person is behind them takes away some of the magic for the readers. It about you guys, not me (though it does really make me happy to see someone read one of them!). Have a wonderful day! -Wings
PS, you have excellent fashion sense!

All I want is a friend's with benefits who will take things slowly since I'm a virgin. Is that too much to ask for?