In response to the pole dancing classes comment: sure, pole dancing is great exercise HOWEVER, it really only serves one purpose. Do you really expect to use that skill anywhere else? Being a pole dancer doesn't make you a whore, it doesn't make you a stripper... But you're sure playing the part. It's the skill of the trade. Come on now people.

In my early years I got told a story that happened at a nearby college, the story goes - Once there was a happy couple, they loved each other tremendously, day in and day out. But one day the girl says to the guy "Hey, you wanna come back and lick my pussy?" Both in agreement they went back and he started licking her pussy. He didn't like the taste of tuna so they decided to try out something new. He stuck a sour candy in her pussy to make it sweet; after 2 minutes of slurping and licking he sucked the delicious candy piece from her vagina. Soon to notice that the texture had changed and what he really sucked out was a genital wart. It was safe to say, I never did see the sour patch kid again.... and the wart was a bit like tapioca balls.

Tank you for loving me honey. "If you are not too long, I will wait here for you all my life"

Big women are beautiful too! We just have curves -- But an over weight man is just disgusting.

Bitch please, if I wanted to date a land whale then I would date a land whale. Attractive people are attracted to other attractive people and that's just life.

Masturbation is fucking evil. As a Christian it makes me sick that people masturbate. How could you do that to yourself when god have us this beautiful gift of marriage and sex? When you masturbate, you are not bonding with your wife, you're bonding with your hand and whatever you are looking at or thinking about while you masturbate. Sexual pleasure is for marital bonds and reproducing. You can pretend all you want that masturbation is "okay" or "healthy" for you, but deep down you know you are lying to yourself and your spirit. God gave you hands to do good in this world, not touch yourself.

It would be cool, to be with a girl that likes to drink wine, watch friends, chill in their underpants and just kick it and have a good time haha

Essentially, (tl;dr) I'm terrified. I hate feeling this way. I don't want to feel this way. I HAVENT FELT THIS WAY IN AGES SO WHY NOW. I'm afraid I'll resort back to cutting or make another attempt at my life. For the love of god, someone please help. I can't stand feeling this way.

Initially, I was certain most of my symptoms and thoughts were from a direct correlation of quitting smoking. It's been roughly two weeks now, maybe three. I've lost track. But over the past few days, I'm convinced that my thoughts and moods are no longer being influenced by the lack of nicotine leaving my body any longer. I feel I have no where to turn anymore, yes I can talk to my therapist and family about the feelings I have. And somewhat my friends. But granted outside of that I'm still suffering with this immense amount of pain. Given I feel heartbroken as well, which has a large influence upon my feelings. I'll give you the shortest summary as to why, I felt love again for the first time in years and it was shattered. The pieces are broken, she's moved on and I haven't.I've been with a number of people since, but it just wasn't right. Granted in the end, she wasn't either but still the pain is there. I know I'll meet someone new, but it's particularly difficult to think that sometimes feeling so broken. My alcohol consumption has also gone up, something I know Ill have to lay off of after tonight. In the past, i would binge drink to think I could ignore the pain but I've learned thats not what I should do. There are many activities I partake in to try and cope with these things (weightlifting, skiing, writing, music and drawing) aside from skiing these are all failing me as well. Unfortunately, I cannot always be skiing. Otherwise i may not be having these problems..hehe. I've been off of meds roughly three years now, and I would rather not go back. I felt like a zombie, feeling neither happiness or sadness or any emotion for that matter is a terrible mindset for me. It sounds strange, but sadness is sometimes my best friend. Since it fuels my writing, artwork and music.

My soulmate is in San Francisco. I ruined our relationship over a misunderstanding. If I would have let her explain, we wouldn't be in this situation right now.