Disney movies made me think that it would be so easy to find love. The only "love" here is getting fucked. Nothing true about that.

Flagstaff is the most beautiful place in AZ. And the people are just as beautiful too <3

I like you so much I just don’t want to get hurt. I’m tired of screwing around. I will still be here if you are ready for a relationship one day. I just don’t want to be the one getting fucked over in the end. I came into this thinking that I could win you over but I feel like I have to fight for your attention. I hope you come to your senses that it’s not always going to be all fun. You have to work for the things you care about. If you care I guess I will hear from you soon.

I just graduated NAU. Before I came to flagstaff- I had moved my senior year to AZ. It was the worst year of my life- I had a hard time adjusting to things, my sister almost died from an infection in her leg, she went on suicidal binges every couple of months and I had to be her "person." The whole year, I hid the fact that I was dating someone who emotionally, physically abused me leading to me being raped. A couple months after the relationship ended, at NAU I met the love of my life. He has been the most supportive, wonderful person and we've been together for 4 years. But now I'm back in this small AZ town post-grad, working an unpaid internship and am confined back in my parents conservative suffocating box. I continue to have flashbacks of when things we're bad, and the worst part is the ex is still living here. I fear that by staying here, I'll regress into the shell of the person I was before I came to NAU- and am thinking about going back to grad school here simply because I feel like if I don't leave this town- I'll never get out. I am now the person looking down the edge, instead of holding the person from jumping off of it.

I'm so damn self-conscious

I may be fooling around now but I really hope to find my Prince Charming up here at NAU. I have been in love before and I hope some guy can make me feel that way again if not better. So Prince Charming your princess is waiting <3

Went and shot a fox this weekend. Why? Because I was try to figure out what the fox says! Apparently they just yelp.

I try so hard to be the kid everyone else wants me to be. I do anything for anyone at the drop of a dime, but I feel like nobody sees the pain in me. Not one of my friends ever takes the time to truly understand who I am as a person. I just wish I could find a girl who I could confide in and sincerely show her what type of man I really am