My boyfriend and I had sex in my roommates bed.

My parents and I made a "deal" that I would keep my room clean, and the apartment clean and they'd pay for rent/utilities n food.

But the reality is they LITERALLY want me to clean an hour a day.
I can BARELY manage an hour put together a week.

And my mom was like, oh that's not even close to what reality is.

I have been battling depression, insomnia, suicidal thoughts, body dysmorphia, on top of my autism and adhd.
My therapist says I might have a panic disorder and social phobia. I know I also have a sexual addiction.

My grades are just hanging on (for my standards and for me to not freak out about losing my scholarship because I had been kicked out of a university before...granted it was a religious one and for bad roommate interactions, but that threat is always looming at my door.

I'm going to start junior semester MAYBE in the spring, and I will already have lost one due to the lost time in the other school.

I don't know how I can fix this, but I know whatever I do will be an issue for them. (This is not even bringing up the fact that they don't know about the boys, they'd stop defunding me IMMEDIATELY if they knew, they;re religious.

And honestly, they made me clean when I was dehydrated with strep and nagged at me. They can't have such high expectations for me. I get it, you're both smart and successful and follow the rules for the most part...you want me to do my best.

I AM doing my best. I am working so hard that I rarely if ever get a full nights sleep.
I also should be allowed to have some semblance of a social life.

I'm not giving up the maybe 5 hours a week of outside social stuff for 5 hours of cleaning.

Maybe you want me to be perfect, but I can't be that.

I mean, ffs, my dad came up today and my mom was like, you gotta understand he was tired.....REALLY, I WAS JUST IN SHEER AGONY. But I get it...it's one in the same. Really, it is.

I really want to do school, and I know it is a great privilege to have my own room. But if I get a roommate for my bedrooom, I swear I'll end up on the news. This is my promise to society.

I can't handle them. Can't they just pay for my stuff, let me work it out with my roommates (because I AM) and just see me work as hard as I can to stay in college? I mean, ffs, I know there are a lot of people who do amazing things. I know I'm a spoiled little brat, but I'm autistic in college. That alone deserves merit.

I have a crush on one of the cowrkers at Denny's

Shout out to that one kink you'll take to your grave.

I met a really cute guy at the carnival, and my friends say he's totally into me, but I'm super insecure and I don't know what to do. We played apples to apples and talked about things we like and I feel like we had a connection but I'm not sure because I've been rejected so horribly in the past.

I love military men and police officers!

Okay, if my roomate can fuck while I'm in the room then I can too. So much for courtesy and discretion. Plus I'm gay and he's homophobic. This is gonna be fun.

Unfortunately I no longer go to NAU but when I did, I loved seeing animals on campus. It just brightens everyone's day. So now when I go back to visit I always bring my dog just to see the smiles on people's faces. I especially love doing it around midterms or finals for people to relax and take a break from the stress????