Can you feel it tonight NAU? That pit in your stomach? The feeling that once was butterflies, but feels like hornets now, more than ever? Because I feel it. I feel it deep in my very bones. The feeling that life isn't turning out just how you thought. That you're not smart enough for your major. That all the "good" partners are taken. That you'll never amount to jack shit. That he/she/it doesn't love you anymore. I feel it every once in a while, but tonight, I feel it now more than ever. I nearly ended it tonight. All it would've taken is a turn of the steering wheel a few degrees to the left. Head on collision. Screaming metal as the engine entered the front seat through the dash. Then black. But I didn't. I stayed here for me. And for you. And all the other poor broken bastards out there. Just keep on moving. Keep surviving, NAU. No matter how much you wanna pull the wheel.

I love guys with long hair, and they keep it clean and each strand in place. I have the craziest urge to slowly run my fingers through those locks, but that would be weird girl creeping

My freshman year I pissed in one of the elevators at Reilly hall for a bottle of shitty vodka.

So I think I was being a creeper.. I was watching the radio station channel thingy, and the DJ with the lime green looking bag was pretty.

There's actually a reason for me to go home this semester aside from the holidays! I get to see at least 2 people! :D

I'm a girl and I hate to cuddle.

Fuck this enrolling for classes shit aka paying thousands of dollars to scavenge for classes I don't even want or need.

It's ironic that you guys think that you can live life and fight through everything on your own; well there is going to be a point where you can't. And according to these posts, some people are stopped; physically, emotionally, and even spiritually. It doesn't matter what kind of crap you guys are going through; just admit that you can't do it on your own. I did that. I confessed; I was trying to live life well, the fullest; being nice to people, treat people with respect, good relationships, and all of the sudden, it wasn't cutting it for me. I couldn't do it by myself. And the worst part?

Like any prideful man, I keep going. I thought I could dig myself out, but I only dug deeper, and deeper, and deeper until I realize that nothing I do is working and admit that life cannot be better if I continue to grab on to things I thought I can control. That's when I gave it all up to God (; now I'm a happy man; problems still occur don't get me wrong lol but I know that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength(:

For those who want to keep fighting your problems by yourself, what ever they are, you will end up in a place where life shouldn't be spent. For those who haven't yet hit that wall, good luck doing it without someone who can help you (;

I believe in Jesus Christ because He did things for me that no one could be able to do. I know He exists; I don't have to prove anyone else but myself (:

What do you have to lose? Nothing at all (: you will be in the same place as you are now if you do try it and nothing happens!