#11364 TW: Depression, Suicide

Depression has been with me on and off for years, but recently the spells have become more frequent and severe. The coping techniques I've historically used are no longer working.

I haven't attempted suicide in years, but I will be doing so again tomorrow. This time I'm confident it'll work. I wanted to thank everyone from my Evergreen experience for making it one of the best times of my life. In spite of recent events, there is still more value here than anywhere else on earth.

Thanks again for all your help.

#11363 I heard that Trump is firing DeVos and making Bret Weinstein the head of Education.

#11362 I like sex, but I find 95% of all porn to be very, very unsexy.

#11361 Liberals need to heal their inner Fascist

Conservatives need to heal their inner Snowflake

#11360 whenever someone makes fun of my magic crystals I just simply remind them of Jack and the Beanstalk... try again sweetie.

#11359 I want a chick to come fuck my boyfriend while I watch

#11358 Alright I am going to elucidate something for people on both sides. In postmodern/sjw (and I do mean warriors, as they actively engage in the use of weaponized culture) parlance what white supremacy/"whiteness" actually means is phalogocentrism. I.E society favors intelligent capable men. Phalo: Male, Logo: Rationality (in this case reason and language) Centrism: centered upon. Or more succinctly, the structure the entire western world is based on. Derrida himself says as much.

Blackness, conversely, we can take to mean the opposite of this. Being centered on femininity chaos and irrationality. This is why trying to reasonably engage with people who hold to the SJW philosophy is pointless. They weaponize language and emotional concepts to bully coerce and shame people into doing what they would like and as one such protester yelled at professor weinstien "we dont care what you have to say." Indeed this is 100% true. Never expect that your words if you disagree with them will be met differently.

So never mind the gendered aspects of "whiteness" and "blackness" I and I hope anyone who values reason and logic over emotive, subjective choas would reject the latter and embrace the former. In this sense I very much am "anti black" and a "white supremacist"

Again I am strictly speaking in the post modern lingo of the protesters. I voted obama twice, my first girlfriend was black, I myself am a minority. I do not believe someones phenotype & gender prohibits them from being a human par excellence. This is what not being racist/sexist actually means. Furthermore I believe that most of the postmodernist warriors are just useful idiots, being used by people far smarter and more sinister than they.

Nonetheless, next time one of these people tries to bully you or police you. Tell them loudly, clearly, and assertively "fuck off". Never ever apologize to these people. And finally, never give them a shred of the power they are so desperately greedy for. Especially over you.

P.S I feel this goes without saying, tell the right wing post modernists the same thing. You know the other actual racists, they aren't hard to spot. Typically they aren't shy about their views and have racial supremacy tatoos plastered all over them (lighting bolts and swastikas if white, spears, fists, and zulu shit if black, azteka shit if latino, yakuza tats if AZN, ect.)

#11357 I am embarrassed to be an educated liberal after recent events at our school. Some actions by students at this school have caused utter embarrassment to the entire liberal ideology. Please tell me, do you think Dr. King would exclude white people from his public demonstrations? I am certain he would not. Because he's a competent individual and knows that tactic will only serve to divide solidarity. If you want to stop reading, as I assume many of you do, it's probably because you are too sensitive and reacting to your most valued opinion being challenged. Grow up and continue reading.
I have ready many authors who have thought long and hard about public protest and community organization, and not one of them have mentioned a tactic to exclude a group of people from a demonstration for a cause that they would otherwise support, standing hand in hand by your side. You guys are giving people a reason not to stand with your movement. This tactic goes beyond unintellectual, but ignorant to a person's ability to understand oppression. You guys are reinforcing the image the right has created of us as cry baby extremists who are completely ignorant to how progress to social action is, and has been achieved since the beginning of the civil rights movement around the globe. How about you stop talking and pick up a fucking book so you can learn about how proper progress is made without dividing entire legions of liberals and people who would stand right next to you in this battle? You are dividing communities that you aren't even aware of over this debate. You are the ones who are spreading hate, regardless of whether or not you believe this hate is justified, you are the cause of it.
You are giving that alt-right hillbilly with a with a Gun even more incentive to seek out racism behaviors on US soil. You are causing white america to see liberalism as uneducated, as you have chosen to ignore the paths set out for you by civil rights leaders throughout history. You cannot talk them into believing that what you are doing is right, no matter how eloquently you rationalize it, because they already think you are stupid. Don't you realize that you cannot talk someone into understanding your experience that has led to your extremism? People don't want to listen and they do not care, so stop trying to force them to care, because they won't, and trying to force them to care is not going to add progress to the issue.
How ignorant do you have to be to realize that I can read about slavery and the systematic oppression of African americans and other other minorities throughout time, and I have listened to many minorities talk about how they are oppressed in modern time, and you think in order for me to understand oppression I have to be excluded from standing side by side in solidarity with you? I am not a fucking idiot. I can feel for the people of color who have been excluded from many societal privileged over the years, but you guys seem to think that I don't understand it and have to force me to believe in it. This is insulting, as I, on my own have sought out hours and hours of insight into racism and oppression, and I deserve to stand in solidarity with the black and hispanic community.
I have a white complexion but my dad is native american and mexican, and I am here to tell you that you are wrong. 100% wrong.