I've been with my boyfriend for over a year but lately I feel like I need to have a penis and a game controller in my hands for him to pay any attention to me. I could die and he wouldn't know I was dead until he noticed the bed was cold. I really don't know if he still loves me or if he's more in love with his friends than he has every been with me.

Sometimes when I'm bored I sit on my dorm room floor and pretend I'm a crumb.