Had the depressing moment at the cafeteria tonight, where as I ate my dinner, people took chairs from my table to put around their tables, until my chair was the only chair left at the table.

So there is this girl on campus who I think is kinda cute, and I wanna tell her that, but we don't really know each other and I don't wanna creep her out or anything like that. But I've just seen her so many different times and think she's just adorable looking and feel like somebody has got to say it.

I was commended today by a stranger for my main course of dinner being yogurt, as it is the healthy choice. What this stranger didn't know, was that I was actually eating wiped cream and strawberries. What's more, it was my second bowl.

Question, hypothetically speaking, does the college have a way to know if I'm looking at porn and is my search history "known"? Or am I safe to surf the webs as long as it doesn't disturb others and I can avoid blocked sites...? Just making sure before I get bored later this semester...

I don't have a confession really, I just wanna give a shoutout to the kitchen crew for being some of the only people who say hi to me.

So I think I like this guy from my hometown (not a Fox student). He meets prettymuch everything on my list for the perfect guy. There's just one thing that concerns me: he's a magician. And he wants to start a party planning/entertainment company with his brother, who is a balloon artist. It's not that I'm opposed to magicians or anything like that, I just want someone with job security that will be sure to take care of me and a family. I'm not a gold digger. I don't want to be rich. But I don't want to be struggling either. What should I do?

I don't know how so many people here can be so happy... every time I think about leaving my room, I'm scared. I never felt this way before I came here, but now I just feel like I'm going to fail at everything, and that everyone here wants me to fail. Here at GFU, everyone seems happy and it's supposedly peaceful and fun.... but honestly I feel more depressed here and more apathetic and more unhappy than I think I ever have in my life. People say that I'll feel better, and at times I do feel better, or at least some form of normality, but the fact is that those ideas quickly drift away and I once again feel unstable and lost and without grounding. I feel like I just need to push on through and lock away those thoughts and feelings, but at the same time, I feel as though those thoughts and feelings are telling me something.... and that maybe I should listen to them.
I know I probably shouldn't feel this way, because I've truly been blessed, and I have a great life compared to some... but whether or not I have the right to feel this way doesn't change that I do feel this way, like I'm falling.

Sometimes when I read these confessions, I wonder if some of them are professors on campus. Gives a whole new image in your head when you think that, huh.