Is it bad that I want to invite my friends and those who I consider 'non-blood' relatives, but not invite my parents to graduation? Some have been there for me through everything and my parents just haven't. I don't want them there. They make me anxious and upset. But alas, social construct says I must invite the ones that raised me....

I've known this guy some this year and he's such a sweet, kind, and loving man. Yes, I have feelings for him, but I don't think those feelings will be reciprocated. Most importantly, I don't know if it will workout because my life may take a different turn than planned. Even though I care deeply about him, I hope that he'll find a girl who makes him happy. Whoever that girl is, she's going to be so lucky to have him.

I'm in love with a guy who I barely even know.

I wish I had a real son-mother relationship with my mom. Instead I get defensive when she wants to get close to me because growing up I was sheltered a lot and now I resent my parents. Not that being sheltered doesn't have its benefits but I have this instinctive thought that "Oh, you didn't trust me for all those years and now you want to play cuddly fluffy sweet?". I don't even know.

I got super turnt at the pool party.

I'm so in love with this guy. He's perfect in every way possible, and I've had a sorta crush on him since last semester, but back then I didn't think I had any chance with him, he was totally in love with someone else. Now they're not together, but I'm not sure either of them are over each other. I just wish I could tell him how I feel.

I am soops drunk now with lots of other Fox students. PArty on.

So here is another crush confession. I met a guy the weekend before school started and he is genuinely perfect. I like everything about him and he is a wonderful person from the inside out! I get happy just by seeing him on the other side of campus but as soon as we get into a close proximity, I can't even think, let alone tell him that I've been in love with him ever since he told me that he was "totes excited" for school to start. He is leaving next year and thinking that he doesn't know me and that I can't physically get myself to tell him how much I like him makes my chest feel like it's caving in.