Just found out I have cancer and will probably die in the next few years or so. Have no idea how to tell my family and fiance.

No matter what I do I can't do anything right. I say stupid things and I f up everything. I'm here for nothing. I have next to zero worth in this world, and each day it becomes clearer just how true that is. I wish for death a lot. I'm wishing for it right now. What the hell is even the point? I don't believe in God, so don't give me any God crap. If he does exist I hope he knows he's one cruel bastard. I'm so tired of fighting this depression and all this anxiety, of people telling me to be strong, and that it gets better, because guess what- it doesn't. Not for me. Tonight just might be the night I finally give up.

Last night, after having consumed entirely too much to alcohol, I decided to launch hairspray fireballs in my back yard. Let me tell you, I got really sober, really fast.

While it's now the cool thing if you're a girl to get something other than your ears pierced, I find most piercings (other than ears and nose studs) to be really unattractive. Especially lip and stomach ones. Too often I see an attractive female but am turned off by her large gauges, double lip rings, and eyebrow piercings. Now it's not like I am condemning anyone for these, I'm just saying that as a guy, I find it wholly unpleasant looking.

Whenever I cuddle with someone my heartbeat has to match the other person's perfectly.

I have struggled with same-sex attractions for a long time, because I personally believe homosexuality is wrong. However, no matter how hard I pray or how much will power I exert over myself, I haven't been able to change or control the feelings. It makes me really wonder, is it okay to be gay? I would actually like to hear both sides, and I am a Christian, so relevant biblical evidence is valuable. If anyone is insulted by anyone else's comments, just ignore them, I don't want to start a fight, I just want some honest, good, intelligent and well-thought out opinions. Encouragement is welcome too. I'm just so tired of fighting myself...

I can't get my life under control. I wish I knew how I could exercise self-control. Instead, I just do what I want. This always leaves me feeling either great or regretful. I just wish I knew how to live a consistent, disciplined life, so I wouldn't have all these highs and lows. Anybody know what I'm talking about? Anyone have real advice?

My period always brings a mix of feelings. It's a combination of: "I HATE LIFE. THIS EFFING SUCKS." and "WOHOOO! I'M NOT PREGNANT! THANK GOD!".