I've just been feeling low about how I interact with people. It just seems that some of the people I know just go up and out and talk with someone random and they talk back. Then I try doing the same thing and it falls flat on my face. I have tight friends and an awesome group, but I know life is gonna take me somewhere away from all of them at some point, and it sucks feeling like I can't competently keep up with all these other people making friends. I just feel like I'd be too weird and jumpy for any of that.

I have never lied

My ex was a total jerk to me and when he dumped me to happily live out his affair with my best friend, and I went easy on him. I wish I ripped into him a little more to let him know what an ass he was and how much it hurt. Still wish I could.

Whenever I walk by an attractive boy (which is at least 20 times a day, let's be honest), I always wish I was carrying a stack of papers or something that I could "accidentally" drop so we'd have one of those movie moments where he cracks a cute little joke and our eyes meet while he helps me pick them up. But alas, I cannot muster up the courage to completely embarrass myself on purpose so I continue to just smile in awe when I walk past God's most beautiful creation, and hope that one day a Fox boy will do more than just smile back.

Story of My Life is the only 1D song I like...

I feel like a horrible Christian when I say this, but bible class sucks. I love reading the bible and all but being forced to read it on a schedule. That is bull shit. And chapel. I am one for wanting to go worship God because I want to. Not because I have to. I thought I was going to love Fox. Don't get me wrong I still do no just wish they didn't shove religion down my throat and let me worship God how and when I want to.

Illuminati never forgets.

***Admin's take: What, should I be afraid?***

I put small amounts of alcohol in my roommates drinks when they aren't looking.