I am so pissed off right now

The court ruling against Kesha has stirred up a lot of my own shit about my past and the sexual abuse I faced. I've kept silent about it for so long except to a few people and a past therapist, and that's because I know I will face the same blaming and accusations of lying that she is. Or I'll just be ignored like all my other Facebook posts even just mentioning Kesha's court case. I feel so silenced and so worthless. Hardly anyone I know seems to care even that much about what happened to Kesha and what this says to victims everywhere, like me. I don't know how to talk to anyone about this. I feel like my voice would be just as ignored even if I spoke about my own past. I feel like I'm drowning. I've been having nightmares again. I can't hardly sleep and I feel so empty and dead inside. I'm so f-ing depressed. I thought I had been on the path to healing, but now once again I feel so worthless, small, and ignored. I don't want to go back to therapy really. I'm not sure that's what I need- I think I just need people to actually hear me for once in my life. I just want to be heard. I just want to know I'm not worthless and that I what I went through actually matters. Because I feel like people treat it as if it doesn't matter. As if I don't matter. I don't know how much more I can take of feeling this way.

I must confess...I flush the toilet after I use it. I kinda wish others at Fox did too...

I dislike that Fox only "spotlights" their favorite "good little Christian" students. Just because I don't attribute my success to a deity doesn't mean I should be valued less as a student here.

To the anon who couldn't believe that their roommate hasn't read Shakespeare yet isn't an English major, it depends on where you go to school and what kind of books you are able to buy, as I too am an English major, and I have not yet read Shakespeare.

I am glad I haven't had to go on a field trip to a mosque cuse I would defiantly get in trouble for pissing everyone there off.

I can't believe my roommate is an English major and he's never read Shakespeare.

I can only think of only 3 chapel services that were worth my time attending.