Im a conference champ and I still get no ass.

I have been depressed for about a year now at the top of that failing classes and the saddest part is nobody in my life doesn't know. I become so good at pretending that I am fine. Every body thinks that I'm the strongest(for studying abroad and being independent) and happiest person they use to know. And not being able to talk about it and to pretend to my loved once makes it all worse.