I think I am in love with Paul S even though I shouldn't be.

Here is a shout out to the two girls at the ABV pool friday night! Thanks for openly talking about my weight and reminding me that I'm battling a relapse of an eating disorder. I didn't judge you for your chunky thighs, don't judge me because I look like I don't eat. You DO NOT know what I am going through. Please think before you speak. Sincerly, You girls ruined my night.

Thank you to the guy with the big muscles and the cowboy hat who helped me find my friends saturday night. You were such a gentleman and were sexy as hell. Oh, and I got a kick out of your shirt as well.

Confession: Every time I masturbate I think of when we had sex. Usually this would be a good thing, but I'm trying to forget it ever happened in every other aspect of my life. Like you so easily forgot we were even friends before it happened.

Went out for a cig at a party Friday night and watched a group of basic, drunk-ass freshmen run into the street to flag down the drunk bus. Probably the highlight of my weekend.

Ben M, please be mine! You're so freakin' adorable!

To Bryan(aka Jeff) from Niagara who told me he liked my leopard shirt and then loudly proceeded to tell your friend you thought I was cute... You made me smile and I wish I could have stuck around longer to hang!

I'm so sick of trying so hard to fit in when I just have an overwhelming feeling I don't, and that people are judging me everywhere I go. I just can't even push through day-to-day anymore. I just want to throw in the towel.