I am so close to cracking. So many things have been going wrong lately. Medically, schoolwise, and familywise. I'm getting so tired of feeling sad, and I am not one of those people who just sits around. I try doing something about it, but theres always something knocking me down lately. I honestly feel like i am starting to suffer from depression and catch myself asking what is the point anymore.

The girls in the study room on the fourth floor of the library (4045 I think) Monday are all smoking hot. Especially the blonde girl that I often see in McPhee in the morning.

To the girl poppin a squat in the middle of the schoolhouse yard (5th and hudson) on saturday afternoon,
Just wanted to let you know you made a definite homecoming memory as we drove by and watched you fall down the basement well with your pants down. We hope you're alright, and we've laughed about it constantly since it happened.

I have such a major crush on this girl named Kristine but she's always hanging out with some blonde dude all the time. :(

My confession is I was sober the whole homecoming weekend.... #help

I have absolutely no faith in those around me.
Things that have happened to me in the past have made me timid and disappointed in humanity. I don't trust people very easily and I have a very difficult time letting people in because I always get abandoned or taken advantage of in the end.
If we are acquaintances, I will give you the biggest smile and be the friendliest person towards you, but at the end of the day, I go back to my dorm and think about how lonely I am and how much it sucks that I don't think that any of you would be a true reliable friend. I have completely isolated myself and can't let my guard down.

Sometimes when I'm walking home alone at night, I hope that someone will attack and kill me, so that I won't have to do it myself.

to the tall guy with the kinda beard in the gray jacket at the caf around 8: you were walking with a friend in a purple sweater with neon yellow socks. holy crap you're hot. Hope you're not a freshman because I'm a junior.