Never really noticed it before, but Peter B is pretty good looking

I was in love for a long time. And now... I am still in love. Congrats, you've fucked up my emotions and thoughts and decision making skills. Congrats, you abused me and hurt me and I should wish I had ended things sooner. Congrats, I should regret allowing you to do what you did, so much so that I wish we hadn't been together for the really bad times. Congrats, I should regret letting you do what you did to me for so long, and regret hoping out of love that you would change and trying to get you to change and helping you. Congrats, I should wish you hadn't done to me what you did, and wish that I and ended things forever ago. With how messed up I am now, I should wish we'd never been together. I loved you, and the fact that I even consider wishing we hadn't been together and in love and so so so so happy, means that you seriously are a horrible person. Sometimes I hate you. Sometimes, I still love you. Sometimes I wish we'd never met. Sometimes I wish we were still together, or that you'd change your mind. I hate this. Congrats.

To my neighbors upstairs. I love when you make so much noise after midnight above my room... Your annoying so STOP.

I hate when professors complain because they want students who care to take their 100 or 101 level 1-2 credit class. Yea, I don't care or want to take your class either, but I do want to graduate...

Sometimes I add extra tasks to my daily to-do lists after I've already completed them, just so I can feel as if I've been more productive than I actually have been.

My ex: You mistreated me, emotionally abused me, broke my trust and my privacy, shared personal things with friends completely inappropriately, disrespected me and lied to me, ignored me and even turned me away, and generally used me for what you wanted. Most of all, you played with me and who I am as a person, and you messed with my head and my emotions, almost maliciously, and I never thought you could be capable of something anywhere near that, but I learned that sadly, you are. Months I have struggled with this, and I feel I am broken. You broke me. I hope you are happy, you basically cheated on me and my heart, you cheated our relationship, and I feel broken more completely than you will ever know. I will carry the baggage and trauma from the abuse for the rest of my life, and with every significant other I ever have, I'll never rid the memory of you, the events, the emotions I felt, the confusion, the anger, the communication, everything. You ruined me.

To my ex: we were each other's firsts for everything, two socially awkward people tossed together who fell in love and lasted a couple years. You were everything to me. And now you are being a complete asshole to me, and you know how you are purposefully hurting and wronging me and being difficult and hypocritical and often, stupid. I only wanted to help you and love you always, and for forever that worked, until you got depressed enough that you pushed me away and mistreated me, and wouldn't stop for months. A dozen second chances later, we ended. Why did you have to turn a great relationship and friendship that would have made it in the long run, into just a friendship, and then shut me out completely after leading me on that you cared and wanted to be friends still, and then continue toying with my emotions? The past months have shown how bad you were for me once you changed, how when it started to get bad, I DID deserve better than you, how you turned something sweet to sour, and how much of an asshole you are now. I am truly sorry to see someone I loved so completely, who completed me and who I dreamed of growing with for years, become so destructive, selfish, disrespectful, ignorant, and pathetic.

Single ( ) taken ( ) not giving a fuck anymore (X)