I feel nothing for my boyfriend anymore.

When I'm mid-coitus with my girlfriend, sometimes images of my best friend's mom pop in my head, but I know I have to keep humping, so it's almost like I'm having sex with that guy's mom; she's a milf by the way. I do feel guilty about it.

Whenever I socialize, the need to have sex or masturbate just dissipates away.

I have decided to finally expose someone that is close to me for all the lies she tells. But I know that if I do what I should do and prove that she has hurt countless people in hers and my life, she will ruin my life as I know it. I don't know what to do. I feel helpless.

Everything makes me feel so fat and ugly and I don't know why :( I know I'm neither and I have guys practically falling at me feet in love with me, I'm nice, and I'm not really fat, maybe like 5lbs over what I want to be, which isn't much, and most people don't even think I have fat to spare. But I feel like I'm trapped in a kid. My parents don't let me do anything I want to do, wether it's about my future career, my breaks, or even free time. Nothing I do is acceptable, I can't go to Cali to visit a friend cause I don't need to "chase aftter a stranger and sleep with him" though I'm not going for romance, and he's a good friend I've known almost 4 years!! I'm 21 goddamm it, and I let everyone control my life!! Sorry its a long post. I'm just so confused/ stuck/ sick of being confused and stuck... Also I'm with a guy who says he want to marry me and that he's gonna propose soon, and I want that!! And babies!! But he makes me sad and cry, because he can't make the effort to see me or call me, or tell me he's not coming over... I have lots of other guys, but I love him... Why do I care about hat my parents want, and for a guy who doesn't want me? :( ugh

I sometimes feel like the only virgin on campus. I may as well be the last virgin standing.

I throw the horseshoe, im a pretty big deal around here.

On my last night in Eau Claire I got a blow job in Putnam park then proceeded to go back to the dorms and anal plow #lifeofablugold