#829 I like to get lost in a ton of confessions, but lately they suck.

#828 I encounter a pretty good amount of homeless people in Denton, and I'm always respectful and courteous to them, but it baffles me that there are people who actually want to hang out with them and be their friend. I've never met a single one who I would go out of my way to spend time with and, to be honest, the vast majority of them make me feel uncomfortable.

#827 Where did society go wrong with men & women in this generation? It's so sad that men are okay with the way that society portrays them to be above women, for women to be their toys, I'm sorry women are not, we have our own minds. I'm so sick of seeing these photos all over Facebook that say things like, "a real gentleman opens the door for a woman, then smacks her butt", I'm sorry if my boyfriend did that he'd be single in a flat second, ser. ladies have some respect for yourself!

#825 I don't care what you put in your body, and I do drugs occasionally too, but people who base their entire personality around the fact that they use illicit substances are boring and pathetic.

#824 Yesterday, I found out I was diagnosed with Lung Cancer.

Yesterday was my birthday. Everyone held a nice little party for me, and everyone I knew was there. It was nice. I had some beers and even got to hold a gun for the first time! I was so excited. Everyone kind of thought I looked funny holding it though. Then, we sat down and my brother in law was on the TV. He was a DEA agent, and he was on the local news after a "sting", or whatever they called it. I saw how much money they were making...Jesus Christ, 700,000$ cash. Making...Methamphetamine? Impossible. But, I am intrigued. The bills for my treatment are going to pile up...but, I can't do this..can I?

The next day, I went with my brother on site to see how one of these things unfolded. I am really out of my element here. We pull up to the house as my racist in brother in law is putting bets down for what the dealer will look like. From the corner of my eye, I see a former student of mine fall down the house and make his getaway. I couldn't believe it. I couldn't! I remember him. He wasn't a great student, but meth!?

A day passed, and I began to form an idea. I need money, and I know how to make methamphetamine. It's simple chemistry. I can do this. But, where do I begin? How...what are the risks? What if I get caught? I don't care. I need the money. I need it. I can't die from this...this...cancer, and leave my family in debt. I just can't.

I find him soon. I need his connections, I need to know how this works. I need Pinkman. I threaten him, and tell him I will turn him in if he doesn't help me. He obliges. After giving him all the money I have in the world, he manages to buy us a low run down RV, and we drive to the Nevada Desert, and we begin. We cook. I begin cooking methamphetamine. And I think, based on what Pinkman is saying, I'm good at it. And I remember this cook like it was the first day I married Skylar. Oh...that day. I never should have gone with Hank. Everything would be so different now.

i write this confession so that the world knows my reasoning for this. I did this entirely for my family. All of it. Me. Me alone! I was the man who murdered Gus Fring. I am the man who launched those killings in the prisons last year, and I am the man you know as Heisenberg. In 2 years time, I have become more dangerous and powerful than you could possibly imagine, I was the number one exporter of the blue crystal you all know today.

By now, I am probably dead. I have exacted revenge upon the ones who have wronged me, and I am sure my family has moved on, Skylar has remarried, and my son is no doubt pursuing an education and is getting ready to marry as well. Because of my actions, I have no choice but to miss these events in my life. Events I should have been there to see! I have made America say my name. And I will not be forgotten.

There will come a time in your life where you will be at a crossroads. When the decision comes time, you must remember that family is more important than anything.

Holly, I love you.

#823 When I was a kid, I was racist. I was never belligerent or anything. I simply didn't like black people. My parents were never racist in the least, so I have no idea where I got it. I'm happy to say that I'm over it now. I am even attending an HBU for my Master's degree.

#822 I keep seeing my Human Sexuality TA around campus in cute outfits and I just want to take them off! AJ, you can teach me about human sexuality and give me an oral exam any day ;)

#821 If a slightly above average looking white guy smiles at you he is imagining ravaging you in the closest available location.