Andrew W. (I think he is a Green Jacket or SGA or something involved) is super cute!

I like watching CNN in my dorm room. I liken it to my version of what one considers a guy does who is all into a sports game. Sports doesn't do it for me, but CNN's political discussions and rants do. I'm republican and I sometimes find it hard not to cuss at Piers Morgan through my television. It got pretty heated November 6th last year, I'll tell you that much. I have a love/hate relationship with CNN. While I disagree with a lot of what they comment on or about, I got addicted to watching CNN during the economic crisis in 2009. Love me some CNN!

No one in my life knows this, but I go online every weekend and go on chat sites just to role-play/have cybersex with people, cam and have phone sex with strangers. I have sex almost weekly with the same guy but I just can't stop being sexual.

I have self-inflicted cuts and scars running up and down my arm and a few words carved into my thighs, and I want to go hang out with friends but I'm terrified of them noticing.
Apparently is socially unacceptable to express pain.
I wish more people understood, I wish I didn't have to constantly hide behind long sleeves and jackets. I want to be comfortable in my skin again but that is never going to happen.... And the worst part? I don't WANT to give up cutting, it makes me feel so good,so alive, I LOVE watching myself bleed, it's the best high. But nobody understands......
I've been severely depressed for a year now, and also have an anxiety disorder, I can't feel but then I feel too much, how the Hell else am I supposed to deal with things than to slice my skin up?! It's literally an addiction, I literally go through withdrawals, I shake and the thought of it consumes me until I give in.
But apparently that makes me crazy. Nobody calls a smoker crazy, nor a drunk, but addicted to the high from cutting yourself? Fucking crazy. :/

Tatum, at the Forum pool party, you're fucking beautiful! :)

UNT girls: Why do you have so many problems with hooking up? If we're both single, you like me, have a good time and think I'm attractive (reciprocal on my end too) why not hookup? Especially if you're sloppily making out with me at the bar/party or god forbid we make it back to your place or my place, start hooking up, THEN say we shouldn't... There is nothing wrong with being a slut, sluts are fun. Being a shameful slut is a huge problem however.

The quickest way to lose a friend is by being TOO clingy. Seriously, how can you call yourself independent when you won't even go to the grocery store alone? This is college, grow up!

I have made so many mistakes. I want to do something right for once.