Sometimes I just want to go back to locking myself in my closet and contemplating putting a bullet through my skull...

Sometimes I think to myself that I would have been better off being born black. I'm white and grew up in a black neighborhood and all my life I went to schools in which the majority of students were black( I was the token white kid), So it was only natural for me to drift into their own culture over time, and I never really had any experience socializing with my other white people that much... Now that I'm at unt it's different, and I'm having trouble connecting with people of my own race because I'm very culturally different then them, as a result people can't take me seriously. Are there any other white people out there who are in the same boat???

To the Mexican or Filipino guy who lives at the ridge with the letter A tattooed on your left bicep, dear God you're handsome!
--cute little redhead.

So I had a date last night where I went horse back riding, until my date ran out of quarters -_-

Yesterday I heard War Pigs by Black Sabbath blasting from this guy's car in general parking area by Fouts Field. Nice to know that somebody at this school has good taste in music unlike all these idiots that love to blast that gorilla mating sound called rap in their cars and dorms.

The aide who works in the broadcast journalism lab during the afternoon is rude.

I confess, I think that the divorce rate is so high because people suck at relationships and evaluating people before they take the plunge...and it starts at this age. I see so many people who don't communicate effectively or don't know how to handle disagreements...or even worse, don't know how to make sure they're hooking up with an awful person...

I've been so severely depressed this whole semester, in addition to an anxiety disorder. I can't handle going to class and I have attacks before class and sometimes literally cannot go, and I'm failing some classes because of it, and to get myself mentally together I have to leave college for a year. I hate how pathetic I've become, I can't handle life basically. It's pathetic. I'm already seeing counselors and doctors but the ones at UNT are useless, they don't help. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep and not wake up.